A Conversation with Marlis Schweitzer

On Tuesday, 6 December 2022, at 11am ET, Stephen Johnson talked with Marlis Schweitzer about her first experiences with Performance--her 'First Gatherings.'  A recording of that conversation is included below, in full, along with a transcript.  Marlis teaches in the Department of Theatre and Performance at York University, and researches and writes about the history of performance.  You can find out more about her life and career here.

Marlis grew up in Kelowna and Victoria, British Columbia in the 1980s.  Her first memory of attending a theatrical performance was a Christmas Pantomime in Kelowna when she was about six years old, vivid not only because it was a special event with her mother, and because she was given a 'key' to hold that figured in the plot of the play, but also because it was a performance space that she herself would perform at just a few months later with her ballet class. 

As she remembers, with accuracy and detail, she grew up surrounded by performance of every kind.  She remembers the Kaleidoscope Theatre, an important children's theatre company, performing at her school in Kelowna.  She remembers the deep impression performances in the early classroom had on her, including a full circus in Kindergarten, and a (somewhat more unsettling) rendition of the Three Billy Goats Gruff.  She talks about the importance of the many varieties of performance cultures that surrounded her as she grew up in these two cities, including ballet lessons when she was young, singing lessons in her teens, as well as church choirs, operatic societies, baseball, video rentals from Blockbuster, and watching The Sound of Music on television.

There were clear, life-changing events in Marlis's relationship with performance.  She describes a production of the musical Annie, co-created with friends in her neighbour's basement, a true 'home theatrical,' with costumes, props, and an audience.  This 'production' was not based on a script, or a filmed version (which came out in 1983), but on her friend's memory of seeing a live production in Vancouver, on the material objects and souvenirs available from that show, and on the cast recording--it was a rendering of a performance from archival and oral histories.  Later, in her mid-teens, she was cast as Maria in West Side Story, a significant experience for her as a teenager in a culture of high school students, acting and singing the role of a teenager, where art and life commingled.  In both cases--Annie and the ten-year old, Maria and the sixteen-year-old, the impact of the work of art resonated with the performer. 

Marlis didn't take any arts courses in high school, but she grew up in a world surrounded with the opportunity to perform and to witness performance.  In her later teens, she appeared in a production of The Sound of Music for the Victoria Operatic Society, and from there made her way to the University of Victoria to study Theatre and History.  She has been studying both of these subjects ever since. 

And Archivists take note--Marlis kept meticulous scrapbooks during these years. 

TRANSCRIPT

[00:00:06.010] - Marlis Schweitzer

Hello. My name is Marlis Schweitzer. I live in Toronto, or Tkaronto, but I was born in Kelowna, British Columbia, and I am currently a theater professor at York University in the Department of Theater and Performance. I see myself as a theater and performance historian. I was trained at the University of Toronto, where I received my PhD. I had the wonderful opportunity, Stephen, of working with you as my supervisor. And I love all aspects of theater performance history, particularly looking at the history of performance, actors and actresses, as well as the connection to material culture. So objects, all kinds of objects, costumes, props, set pieces, ephemera, collectibles, all of that is something that I have been obsessed with for many years. And it's something now that I can call 'work.' So that's a little bit about me. I'm on sabbatical. I've just come off of four years as a department chair. So I'm really delighting in research again.

 

[00:01:20.170] - Stephen Johnson

That's great. That's exactly what we needed to know. And where did you grow up? Because a lot of this has to do with early experiences of theater that I'm going to ask you.

 

[00:01:34.860] - Marlis Schweitzer

Sure, sure. So I was born in Kelowna, BC. And lived there until I was about, I think, grade three, where we moved to Edmonton for a very short period of time, and then we moved back to Kelowna and then stayed there until I was in grade five. Then I was in Victoria. I know we did a lot of moving around. Then I moved to Victoria, BC, where I stayed basically from grade five all the way through my undergraduate education. Once I was in Victoria--a little bit of old England--things stabilized, but my earliest years of theatre going and performance training happened in Kelowna.

 

[00:02:18.510] - Stephen Johnson

Right. Well, then that leads to my first question and in other interviews, other discussions that I've had, we've certainly ranged widely from the very first experience, but I wonder if we could just begin there. What's your first memory of attending something that you would define now or define then as theater or performance of some kind?

 

[00:02:45.830] - Marlis Schweitzer

So one of my earliest memories of attending the theater was the Christmas pantomime in Kelowna. And I don't actually remember how old I was. I was probably, I want to say six. And it was a really special evening because it was just me and my mom, and my mom was so good to have special sorts of little outings--with my brothers as well--so everybody had like alone time or special time with mom. But I just remember being able to get dressed up as really something.  I don't remember what it was, but just the feeling of being in a nice dress. And then the thing I loved, which perhaps is where my obsession with objects begins, was that as part of the pantomime, we received this large key, like a key that you could put into a doll to wind up, like a wind up toy.

 

[00:03:38.620] - Stephen Johnson

Right.

 

[00:03:39.320] - Marlis Schweitzer

And it was covered in like, in tinsel paper. And at various moments, as with Pantomime performance, I didn't know at the time, but of course I now understand this, the whole audience interaction component. We had to raise up our key and do whatever we were instructed to do to help the hero or heroine and vanquish the villain. And there was just something about having that key and then being able to take it home with me that was so special as a kind of part of the performance and also then a memento of the performance. So that's one of my very earliest theater going outings.

 

[00:04:14.130] - Stephen Johnson

That's fascinating and very interesting that you'd remember the object. That does say a lot about you.

 

[00:04:21.280] - Marlis Schweitzer

It does. I know.

 

[00:04:23.170] - Stephen Johnson

Do you remember the space?

 

[00:04:28.290] - Marlis Schweitzer

I kind of have a memory of sort of where relative to the stage, we were sitting, like, we weren't sitting in the front row. It was kind of like the middle of the auditorium. I know it was sort of downtown Kelowna-ish. So it must have been one of the older theater buildings there. Later on, when I was growing up in Victoria, I'd get to see real fancy theaters. This wasn't a fancy theater in my recollection. More like a sort of more civic auditorium-esque, I think.

 

[00:05:06.610] - Stephen Johnson

Would have been a more recent build--like a more recent building, probably. It was built for the community, sort of centennial funding and that sort of thing.

 

[00:05:17.740] - Marlis Schweitzer

Late. That makes a lot of sense. Yeah, probably like 60s, early 70s, because I would have been going to this like late 70s, early 80s. But I don't have any more vivid memories. I do remember being in a space surrounded by other people and that kind of excitement, feeling that energy.

 

[00:05:38.220] - Stephen Johnson

And how does that fit in with the other things that you would have done that were public or performance oriented, surrounding that? Had you been in spaces with large groups of people, had you been in spaces with small groups of people, had you been in spaces that had some kind of raised area at the front, whatever that would be?

 

[00:06:07.980] - Marlis Schweitzer

Right. So I had different kinds of experiences. We went to church, so there was certainly the church experience at that time. I don't actually remember--one of my experiences as a young person was moving churches very often. So I don't actually have a vivid memory of what church we were going to at that time, if we were going to one at all. Various disagreements with various, I don't know, belief systems, but that would have been one. And then also experiences at school and then even with my friends. So if this was around kindergarten, which I think it must have been, I had an amazing kindergarten teacher who helped us stage an entire circus performance. And so this is more of a memory of the circus where we were in the gym, and we all got to have our little costumes and play, I think. I know I had orange, orange, basically, like bodysuit/bathing suit, and I got to have my hair up and was doing things on, like, the monkey bars, basically, 'look at me flip.' But there were some of my friends who were lions. And so that was an experience, a kind of in-the-round circus experience.

 

[00:07:22.090] - Marlis Schweitzer

Then I also remember earlier, I think one of my earliest memories of performance is actually a more dramatic one, where in a preschool, we had to re-enact the story of the Three Billy Goats Gruff, and I had to play one of the billy goats crossing, and then there was, like, the troll right under the bridge. And that was terrifying. That was just the thought of crossing, and then my teacher was like, okay, well, do you want to be the troll instead? And that was slightly better because I guess it was about controlling when I came out. But I can't say that that was the best experience of performance. I've had experiences of it in school, in preschool, and it wasn't until I was a little bit older that my friends and I put on our own basement production of Annie the Musical. But we can get there.

 

[00:08:14.510] - Stephen Johnson

We can get to that, and we will. That's great. But that's very interesting that you had these other experiences, and you do remember these other experiences. You remember the negative repercussions of having trolls underneath the bridge. I have similar, you know, memories of kindergarten and reenacting these things. And I remember thinking many, many years later, why did they--did they not know that this was going to frighten us? But maybe that was the point. But yes, acting that out is interesting. And the other things you mentioned as well. Did any of those things--not that you're going to make a connection when you go in and see these things--but I'm making an assumption here, which maybe I shouldn't, that the great difference was that you went into a separate space, and there was this space that was there, that was unusually, for a very particular purpose. And then you saw this pantomime.

 

[00:09:22.770] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yes, definitely. The whole experience of it just getting to go, having the time alone, like, without my little brothers being able to go into this space was a special event, and then having the 'accoutrements' or the toys and the props that were part of it, and then being invited then into that space. So, yeah, all of that was really exciting. And I'm trying to remember if there--because I started ballet around the same time, like ballet classes--and I don't know if there was any connection between the pantomime and the ballet. There may have been. Actually, you know, what? Now that I remember, I think it was the same auditorium where we did our ballet recitals. And that was something I remember, really with great excitement because of the whole--again, a much more positive experience of performance--because we'd been rehearsing for many months. But I believe that must have been the same auditorium.

 

[00:10:25.350] - Stephen Johnson

And would that have been a little later than the Pantomime or the same--would you have been in the auditorium?

 

[00:10:33.330] - Marlis Schweitzer

Prior to.  I don't think I would have been, no. I think that was my first experience of it. But it probably makes sense that then if that was Christmas, I think our recital may have been in the spring.

 

[00:10:46.830] - Stephen Johnson

So you were occupying the same space as the Panto in short order.

 

[00:10:50.830] - Marlis Schweitzer

There we go. I want to be on that stage.

 

[00:10:53.830] - Stephen Johnson

That's right. Wow. Thank you for that. That's very interesting. And honestly, it connects with so many other people I've talked with about the things that you remember.

 

[00:11:09.650] - Marlis Schweitzer

Another thing I just remember, too, which is around the same time, is because we lived in BC, there was early Kaleidoscope theater. I don't know if you know Kaleidoscope Theater.  They're based in Victoria, but they also did a lot of touring of schools. And I remember that they came to our school.  It may have been, like, Grade One or Grade Two, and they came through and did, I think it was an Inuit story. And I remember that was quite exciting to have your gymnasium transformed into a theater space. So that's an early theater memory.

 

[00:11:46.770] - Stephen Johnson

So quite a bit of theater, in fact, or quite a bit of performance between you yourself, performing ballet class in front of other people and also hiding--being attacked by trolls and all the other things. You're also attending a standalone production where you are in the audience, and that was a big deal. So I guess from there, we do move on to Annie. Was there something intervening between that and...?

 

[00:12:16.320] - Marlis Schweitzer

Annie is, like, the most consequential theatrical event of my young years. Do you want me to just tell you about it?

 

[00:12:27.380] - Stephen Johnson

Please, I would.

 

[00:12:29.230] - Marlis Schweitzer

So, my very best friend, Jennifer Lefontaine, came home from a visit to, I believe it was Vancouver, and she was telling me and our other friends, we all lived on the same block in Kelowna, about this show that she'd just seen in Vancouver, Annie, and we were like, wow, this sounds amazing. And it was just before the movie had come out as well. The movie came out, I believe, in 83, so this was probably 82 and the musical version. And so we were kind of soon obsessed with Annie. I had the tape with the cast recording, and my friend Jen and I would sit at her kitchen table and then just come up with an entire list of all the Annie products we wanted. So we wanted, like, Annie pencils and Annie notepads and Annie purses and Annie dolls. And it was like anything that we could think of, Annie berets, we wanted them. And of course, the biggest was, like, the Annie locket, because that's an important object in the film that connects her to her parents. So we wanted some variation of that. And I didn't get the cool one, which is like, the actual necklace, but I got a one with a little doll in, it's like a plastic doll in a little heart.

 

[00:13:39.640] - Marlis Schweitzer

Anyway, so we were obsessed. So then we're like, well, what if we do our own basement production of Annie? And so we began. We're like, yeah, of course we can do that. And my friend Jen had this great kind of fully semi-furnished basement. And so we got our friends together. We even enlisted my younger brother to play the dog and to play all of the male characters. So he played the character of Rooster, who's connected to the kind of flighty Lily. And did he play Daddy Warbucks? I don't think he did. But my friend Jen got to play Annie, and I got to play Molly, the orphan friend of Annie, Miss Hannigan, who runs the orphanage, and Grace, who is basically the assistant to Oliver, to Daddy Warbucks. So I played all the secondary, really good, juicy roles. And then our other friends I know, like, triple casting. And they were the orphans and then the other characters. And what I remember, one of the most vivid memories is there's a song called 'We'd Like to thank You, Herbert Hoover.' And we did not know who Herbert Hoover was or what the significance of this song was.

 

[00:15:00.910] - Marlis Schweitzer

Of course. It's like this ironic song about basically like, screw you, Herbert Hoover, for your terrible treatment of the poor. And we were singing along to the cast recording, and I remember my dad in the audience when we performed it for our parents, saying, 'Sing Louder.' And we'd say, 'Dad, we don't know the lyrics!' That moment was just prime performance.

 

[00:15:28.930] - Stephen Johnson

And this was a performance in the basement.

 

[00:15:31.870] - Marlis Schweitzer

In the basement, yes.

 

[00:15:33.480] - Stephen Johnson

And you still got heckled.

 

[00:15:36.250] - Marlis Schweitzer

I know. I think it's my dad's Lutheran upbringing or something. I don't know. Yeah. I don't know how long we rehearsed. It felt like weeks, but it was probably only days. And the costumes, of course, that was really exciting.

 

[00:15:54.590] - Stephen Johnson

That's fantastic. And it must have been quite a bit of, I mean, you had an audience in the basement. How many people would have been in that audience? Like, half a dozen?  More?

 

[00:16:04.920] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yeah. Maybe eight sets of parents.  And maybe a brother or sister--

 

[00:16:07.260] - Stephen Johnson

Of course. No, that's legit theater. Home theatricals.  A long tradition of that.

 

[00:16:18.590] - Marlis Schweitzer

Nineteenth Century.  Absolutely.

 

[00:16:23.450] - Stephen Johnson

Well, that's very interesting. And the fact that it would all come to your home through--I mean, it's a Broadway musical!

 

[00:16:33.850] - Marlis Schweitzer

Exactly. And I still have so much. Again, back to objects. I still have so many of the things that we purchased and obsessed over at that time. It's like early fan culture, celebrity culture, and then just the material culture of performance. And I have, like, the Annie record and so many of those things that were really formative just in my whole relationship to yeah, to theater, to commercial theater, to Broadway, to music.

 

[00:17:00.070] - Stephen Johnson

Yes, it travels well, that stuff. And you had a 33 1/3 record?  You had a record? And were there other musicals surrounding that as a culture, or was it just Annie? All Annie all the time?

 

[00:17:15.800] - Marlis Schweitzer

It was like all Annie for at least a year. That was the real obsession.

 

[00:17:20.840] - Stephen Johnson

Well, I understand that, because that would be the show that would appeal to your age.

 

[00:17:28.370] - Marlis Schweitzer

I mean, there were like, things like Cabbage Patch Kids, but that was different.

 

[00:17:33.550] - Stephen Johnson

Certainly was different.

 

[00:17:36.270] - Marlis Schweitzer

But no, the musical obsession was definitely Annie.

 

[00:17:39.480] - Stephen Johnson

That's very interesting. And in terms of other kinds of performance besides that, you've given me some of the things you did. But if we just move on from there a little bit, when did you first yourself start becoming involved in school theatricals? And, I mean, you'd be a little older then, and some people don't get involved in school theatricals until way later. But you may have and I wonder if you could just talk about that a little bit, because all of this leads into your interest in doing theatre as well--

 

[00:18:14.980] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yeah, so I didn't take any drama classes in junior high or high school. For some reason. I'm like, no, that's not me. I don't really think I can do that. I don't know why. Then when I was in grade eleven, I started taking singing lessons, and then I really enjoyed that. I had a great singing teacher who was training at UVic in the music department, and then there were auditions for West Side Story, so I thought I'll go out for that. I had a friend who was also taking lessons with the same teacher, and she also decided, hey, why not? Let's audition. And I was very surprised and delighted when I was cast as Maria. Yeah, I was not expecting that. It was a bit terrifying because I just started the formal training and that is a very hard role to sing.

 

[00:19:17.540] - Stephen Johnson

And you would have been what age?

 

[00:19:19.250] - Marlis Schweitzer

I think I was 16, turning 17. So I did that and we got to perform at--not our own high school auditorium, but a different high school auditorium.

 

[00:19:33.120] - Stephen Johnson

And it was a school production. It was a high school production, but in an auditorium.

 

[00:19:38.750] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yeah.

 

[00:19:39.690] - Stephen Johnson

That's pretty--that's quite amazing. I mean, it's not amazing that you would be cast, of course, but you're right, that would certainly be a memorable effect in your life being Maria.

 

[00:19:53.090] - Marlis Schweitzer

It was, yeah. And I remember for the audition, for The Callback, we had to do some interpretive dance piece, and I remember I had very little. I did as I mentioned, I did ballet when I was much younger and I continued to do that a little bit till grade four or five and then sort of stopped. So I hadn't had any more formal training in dance. And so I did this. I'm sure it must have been the most cringy interpretive dance to the Brian Adams song Everything I Do, I Do It For You from the Robin Hood movie soundtrack. And I thought it was so beautiful. And thankfully, Maria doesn't have to do much dancing in West Side Story because I did not have the goods there. But, yeah, the Tony, he was great and I kind of had a super crush on him. But whatever. I think it helps.

 

[00:20:50.270] - Stephen Johnson

I'm sure it helps. The interpretation, chemistry.

 

[00:20:54.090] - Marlis Schweitzer

The Chemistry.  Yes. And that was my very first kiss. I hadn't had a boyfriend or anything like that, so my very first kiss happened in the whole scene at the dance. So it was very meta. Very meta. Our first rehearsal and the first time we had to kiss, that was a little intimidating to be surrounded by the rest of the cast, and going 'I don't even know. What do I do? How do I do this?'

 

[00:21:17.270] - Stephen Johnson

Very interesting. And the whole way you tell it, I mean, the whole idea that it's not just about putting on a play, there's this whole thing going on, because it's a musical, as we have discussed in another setting, it's layered with traditional ways of performing things. On the other hand, it's a play about teenagers. And you're teenagers.

 

[00:21:46.130] - Marlis Schweitzer

I watched Natalie Wood--

 

[00:21:48.610] - Stephen Johnson

--and you could connect.  So you are Natalie Wood. Well, you know, that's very interesting. And, you know, in terms of the singing and the performance of that, what was the other training surrounding that? I mean, it was a school musical and people do school musicals, but there are greater and lesser degrees to which a school invests in these musicals. And I wonder if you had anything to say about that context. Was there a real infrastructure or was it more informal?

 

[00:22:23.680] - Marlis Schweitzer

Well, we had a drama teacher there, a dance teacher and the music teacher. They were all involved. I think it was pretty stressful, especially for the music teacher. The drama teacher was kind of, I think, a self styled cool guy, as I think many drama teachers have been historically--would hang out with all the cool-- This is early Grunge, like 90s grunge, Seattle Sound, all of that stuff was really influencing high school culture. So most of the Jets had long, kind of Grungy hair. So there's an interesting look. But the drama teacher was like a motorcycle rider and he had this leather, so he brought that vibe to our rehearsal space. And then we had the dance and art teacher who was--I don't know how technically--but dhe was a really lovely, warm, kind of maternal presence. So it felt good. I think later on, I kind of look back and go, oh, I don't think they had necessarily the kind of training that I know some of the performing arts high schools in Toronto have. It was nothing of that level or even there's another school called Oak Bay where the kind of previous training and experience that the drama teachers had was much greater.

 

[00:23:46.570] - Marlis Schweitzer

But I didn't know any different. I was like, okay, this is cool. So I felt well supported. And then I had my own singing lessons on the side to tackle the really hard music.

 

[00:23:59.290] - Stephen Johnson

Right. And how about the costumes for that particular production? What would they have been like, and how carefully were they done?

 

[00:24:10.030] - Marlis Schweitzer

Well, my favorite costume was actually a dress that had belonged to my mom when she was, I think, in high school. And it was this beautiful sort of salmon pink dress, kind of 50s style, or maybe slightly sixties and spaghetti straps, lace bodice and full skirt. And I wore that--not for the dance at the gym, because that has to be a white dress. But I wore it in I think 'I Feel Pretty' in Act Two. And it was like, it made me feel so good. And so there was that. And then for the dance at the gym, where Maria has her white dress that she doesn't really like because it's a communion dress, they built that for me. And it was, looking back, not historically accurate. It was not a 1950s dress. It was a more, like, Laura Ashleyesque style, late 80s, early 90s, like, prom-esque dress. But it was really pretty. And there's little rosebuds all sewn on. So I liked that as well. But my favorite is the one from--

 

[00:25:22.870] - Stephen Johnson

Well, adding to the meta nature of the whole thing. Right?

 

[00:25:26.710] - Marlis Schweitzer

Definitely. And also, it's interesting because as part of that production, one of the negative consequences was that the woman or the girl playing Anita had just come back from Japan where she'd been modeling. And so I looked at her and she was, like, gorgeous and beautiful, and I thought, oh, I need to aspire to that. And so I basically kind of flirted with an eating disorder for about six months or more. And I lost a lot of weight, which is what allowed me to actually wear my mom's dress, because that still mingled in with that experience was both, like, the amazing love of theater and, oh, my gosh, I can do this, and that excitement. And then also, like, what do I need to do this? Oh, I just need to stop eating so I look better. So those two life experiences are pretty closely commingled.

 

[00:26:18.430] - Stephen Johnson

Boy, there's a lot to talk about there, but I don't know if you want to talk about that now. But when you started talking about how when you use the word meta, who would have thought that West Side Story would be the thing that would coalesce into all this cross fertilization, and would impress upon you in such a real way. Although it is high school and you are teenagers and that's all part and parcel of it. That's very interesting.

 

I want to go back to something you said because it jogs a memory of mine when I hear the word 'interpretive dance'-- that you auditioned. And this has to do with training. Not your training, but the kind of education you get in school. You didn't take drama in high school, but when you auditioned, part of the audition process for a role that had very little dance, really. One dance scene, but it's traditional dance. You had to do an interpretive dance scene. I just wonder if you have a sense, thinking back now of what it was that the people who did these things were after when they had people do that, because there's a lot of that that was done.

 

[00:27:51.400] - Stephen Johnson

And it would have been a time when these people would have come out of whatever training they had. And that training may have just been teachers college. It may not have been from school themselves. Although probably there was. I just wonder.

 

[00:28:07.690] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yeah. I have to assume, and I can't be sure, but I think there were separate callbacks for the Jet Girls and the Sharks. It was just me. And I think I came in to do some singing as well as some movement. So I think it was more they're just interested in seeing how I moved. And then it's kind of just more I don't know for sure. But my guess is that they said, pick a piece of music you like and just come and dance to it. Something just like that. Both--the two teachers were very free spirits. This is Victoria. Very kind of hippiesque. So I think their knowledge of that is like, yeah, just kind of move.

 

[00:28:48.870] - Stephen Johnson

And we both know now, after all these years, why.  It's just they want to see whether you can. Whether you're willing to of course, there's that, too. Well, I'd like to go back a little and then forward a little. But going back a little because I keep trying to find the context surrounding--ever larger concentric circles of those first experiences in the theater. And you draw a line around it and draw a line around that. I mean, in terms of your witnessing of performance. Were you taken to the movies? Did you watch television? Did you listen to the radio? I'm guessing all of the above. But is there a sense of the context that sets you up for live performance? But it's close by.

 

[00:29:40.990] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yeah. Yes. All of the above. Didn't really go see--well, no, that's not true. We lived fairly close to a movie theater. So I'd go see stuff with my friends in the summer and that was kind of cool. My family was a big sports family. Both my brothers played baseball and so we spent a lot of time at the ballpark.  And what else? Well, I do know that once I got into theater, then I started seeing a lot more theater and going to other high schools and their productions and things like that. So I kind of invested really intensely once I decided I was interested in that. But I always loved musicals. My mom would have us watch The Sound of Music. That was one of my favorites. And for a lot of those we'd go to Blockbuster, or wherever, and rent movie musicals. So that's like so many young people. My real entree into the history of theater other than Annie was through musicals, film musicals. And then I can't remember if we actually saw any live productions in Victoria. I don't think our economic standing at the time let us see a lot of that.

 

[00:30:56.870] - Marlis Schweitzer

But I did I forget to mention this. We went to a different church and the the minister from that church was from North Carolina and had come from a very different tradition of music and worship, I would say. And when I was like grade seven, eight, and I was in the choir and I loved it. It was an amazing experience for about a year. And we were there every Sunday. We'd have rehearsals once or twice a week and it was a kind of choir that doesn't just stand there. We actually had to, like, move and like, have the choreography. And I remember being assigned these, like, older ladies who I think at the time just seemed so ancient to me and going the wrong way. And it's like, no right, left. So that, I think, was also, in terms of performance experiences, a really important one.

 

[00:31:52.690] - Stephen Johnson

Absolutely. That's very interesting. And I'm glad that memory came back to you. Yeah. One of the reasons for asking these questions is, you have this great surround. I mean, you had this experience and I don't know what age you were when you were attending the church and singing in that choir, but I don't think that's a usual thing for people to be singing in a choir in a church where you moved.  Choirs, maybe, but the one where you move, that's a special case.

 

[00:32:22.640] - Marlis Schweitzer

It was pretty radical.

 

[00:32:24.590] - Stephen Johnson

Very interesting.

 

[00:32:26.510] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yeah.

 

[00:32:27.230] - Stephen Johnson

And also, on the other hand, the relationship between you and Blockbuster and all of those musicals is also something that's common, I think, for a certain age group. Not really an age group. It crosses age groups. It's a bonding experience, as you've already said. I mean, with your mother, you'd watch these musicals. But to have the musical, being the important feature.  I mean, you weren't going to Blockbuster and renting science fiction movies. [M:  Well, my brothers were.]  Well, your brothers were, but that's exactly my point.

 

[00:33:10.750] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yes. I was an avowed fan of WWF because of their influence, just like I influenced them with musicals. So they still enjoy the occasional musical and I still enjoy The Rock.

 

[00:33:26.210] - Stephen Johnson

Absolutely. No, that's also, thank you for mentioning.  If I get through one of these interviews and nobody mentions wrestling, I'm disappointed. Really? That's fantastic. Absolutely. You watched WWF, which I remember watching when I was a kid. I didn't go live, but it was there on television. So you watched it. What role did it have in my life other than that? Well, it's amazing what you start...once the television invades the home. Boy, the numbers of things that you can watch that you otherwise wouldn't have had a clue even existed. And so it goes with musicals to some extent. And you mentioned baseball, too.

 

[00:34:11.060] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yes.

 

[00:34:11.570] - Stephen Johnson

And that's very interesting that you mentioned that, because to me, we all forget that sports surrounds us and that it is a performance idiom. I mean, you and I may not forget that, but we may forget it about ourselves. The fact that it's there and you're watching it and there's no question that it's a performance idiom. Some of my favorite live performances were the softball games down in the local park, watching the local guys competing, but mostly acting.

 

[00:34:50.490] - Marlis Schweitzer

Definitely. My dad was like a coach and yeah, that was a very strong part of my teen life, was my brothers' relationship to that sport and the good days and the bad days and how that could actually colour the whole family's experience. My younger brother was a pitcher. So all the highs and lows of that experience.

 

[00:35:15.330] - Stephen Johnson

That's very interesting.

 

[00:35:17.860] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yeah.

 

[00:35:20.310] - Stephen Johnson

I'm just going to go forward and then we'll be done. And then going forward is that you get through your teenage years, you start university, but you at some point turned toward theater studies. And at what point did that become clearly the way that you were going to tranfer? Yes. You said you didn't study it in high school. It didn't seem to be the thing. But then you did. So what did you study?

 

[00:35:52.910] - Marlis Schweitzer

Well, I did my first year at UVic--University of Victoria--and I did just a general first year. I did like, history classes, english, philosophy and so forth. And then I got involved in some community theater, and there was a great theater company called the Victoria Operatic Society or VOS. And I think maybe my Mom and I began to see some of their productions. They used to do three a year, like winter or fall and then a spring and sometimes a summer. And so I was like, okay, maybe they were going to do The Sound of Music. And so I auditioned for The Sound of Music and I got a roll of a Nun, a young postulate.

 

[00:36:43.230] - Marlis Schweitzer

That was actually a really wonderful experience because the director of that production was also one of the high school directors at this other school at Oak Bay, which had like a really good performing arts program. And I think I'd seen a couple of the Oak Bay's productions. I'd actually seen they did Romeo and Juliet, I think the year after we did West Side Story, somewhere around the same time I'd seen the Juliet, and I really liked that production. And then to come to Sound of Music, and I'm cast, and that's a great and exciting new opportunity outside of high school. And the Liesl I recognized was the Juliet from this Oak Bay production as well. And so she was like, just as I was, I think, 18, she was 17, something like that. And I kind of started to chat with her and get to know her. And it was around that time that I was chatting about, I was starting thinking, like, maybe I really like theater. I really like the experiences. I know we did some drama exercises, which I just remember this moment of being in whatever it was.  Again, some interpretive dance movement, and kind of going like, oh, I really like this.

 

[00:38:02.470] - Marlis Schweitzer

And I recognized as well that my experience in high school and the training and what the teachers could offer was not at the level of what this other director was able to bring. And so there was something in that room, and I kind of even remember where I was standing in the room and kind of going, 'Hah, I think I really want to do this.' And so then I started to research at UVic, like, the theater department, and looked into that and, like, what is required? And I remember talking it was actually, I think, at a cast party to my friend (now my friend) Sarah, and she was also, she was just finishing high school, and she was like, oh, I don't know, should I apply to university? And I was like, yes, apply. Because if you get accepted, that's great, and if you decide not to go, you can still decide not to go, but if you don't apply, then you've already made your decision. And so, based on that, yes, I know--Well, I was I was a year older, you know, like, I was a very mature 18 year old.

 

[00:38:59.690] - Marlis Schweitzer

So in part because of that conversation, she did, in fact, apply and to the theater department, so I knew that there was one other person. And so, yeah, in my second year of university, I transferred to theater, and my friend Sarah, she's still my friend, and she's currently on Broadway.

 

[00:39:21.730] - Stephen Johnson

And what's she playing on Broadway?

 

[00:39:24.040] - Marlis Schweitzer

She's in the Tom Stoppard play, Leopoldstadt. And she's performed at Stratford. Sarah Topham is her name, she's performed all over the place. She's had tremendous success as an actor and I'm so proud of her. But it was in that moment of The Sound of Music where both I met her and I decided I wanted to really commit my life to theater. So I see it as a really important turning point in my life.

 

[00:39:50.240] - Stephen Johnson

Fantastic. And the fact that you know exactly the moment and pretty much where you were.

 

[00:39:55.790] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yeah.

 

[00:39:56.370] - Stephen Johnson

So you could take me to the spot.

 

[00:39:58.830] - Marlis Schweitzer

Exactly.

 

[00:39:59.620] - Stephen Johnson

This is where it all happened.

 

[00:40:02.510] - Marlis Schweitzer

Definitely. Yeah. No, I mean, the production was whatever it was, but I really enjoyed it. It was fun. And I was singing very high notes, like a high G, which was exciting.

 

[00:40:17.190] - Stephen Johnson

In fact, what you're telling me well, as we all know, you're surrounded by all sorts of performance, but that there also was a lot of opportunity for you. You didn't take it in the classroom, in coursework, in school, but there was a lot of opportunity in the community in various ways, for you to see theater and for you to perform in theater. And it's the performing in the theater that netted you the experience you needed to be able to major in it. Which wouldn't have happened if it was just the high school.

 

[00:40:54.740] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yeah. I would have just stayed in my history degree, and I ended up doing, like, doing a double degree, so BA and a BFA, which I had enough credits. So that was great. So I didn't have to give up the interest in theater, in history.

 

[00:41:09.440] - Stephen Johnson

Yeah. That's great. Well, you know, Marlis, you've been very generous with your time, and I think that I've gotten you through to a certain age now. I've gone through your entire life to a certain age. I could keep going, of course, but perhaps that's enough. Unless there were some things that you wanted to add that have come to you suddenly.

 

[00:41:34.010] - Marlis Schweitzer

No, I just think thank you for the opportunity to kind of travel down memory lane. And I think it's really fascinating that part of me is like, oh, look, it was right there at the start that my interest in material culture performance was there. Of course it wasn't, but I think about in high school, the meticulous scrapbooks I would keep of my experiences, and for the Victoria Operatic Society. So I had photographs I took, I had the programs, the tickets. I had other inspirations for different roles I played. And this was long before I knew anything about 19th century scrapbooking practices or other kinds of performance documentation. So when it came to doing grad school, it was like, oh, I kind of recognized a world that I'd already been kind of living in, in my home. So I still have those records. And that's really exciting to be able to go.

 

[00:42:29.310] - Stephen Johnson

I'm so glad that we continued that talk. I mean, the fact that you have that archive is unusual, extraordinary. I mean, it's not that people didn't keep scrapbooks, but to pay attention to them and to still have them, that's very interesting, because that also has to do with your interest in material culture.

 

[00:42:55.450] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yeah.

 

[00:42:56.200] - Stephen Johnson

Your interest in objects, because the scrapbook is an object.

 

[00:42:59.430] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yeah.

 

[00:43:00.070] - Stephen Johnson

And your interest in history.

 

[00:43:01.860] - Marlis Schweitzer

Yeah.

 

[00:43:03.750] - Stephen Johnson

So that's an important archive. You hang on to those.

 

[00:43:08.280] - Marlis Schweitzer

I will.

 

[00:43:09.850] - Stephen Johnson

No matter what people tell you. What are these doing here? No, they're important. That's very, very interesting. Thanks. And thank you for all of that. I really appreciate your talking with me.

A Conversation with Amy Bowring

On Wednesday, 21 July 2021, at 11am EDT, Stephen Johnson talked with Amy Bowring about her first experiences with Performance--her 'First Gatherings.' A recording of that conversation is included below, in full. Amy is the Executive and Curatorial Director of Dance Collection Danse. You can find out more about her life and career here.

Amy grew up in rural southern Ontario, in a farming family originally from Newfoundland. Both cultural traditions figured prominently in her early memories of performance, both as performer and as audience member. She studied dance all her life, leading to an Hon. BA from York University, and is now caring for the memories and artifacts of dance as a curator. 

Her first, longest and most 'formative' memories are of her dance training in the 1970s and 1980s, from age 7 to age 19, every week and with end-of-year recitals, studying with the Errington-Graham Dance Studios. Because Amy is now a dance historian, she knows the story of this school, which ran from 1917 until 2015, with a base in London, Ontario, but a mandate of teaching/reaching-out to surrounding local communities. Over the decades it developed a unique, and likely the first dance curriculum in Canada for rural communities. Amy provides this history in brief during her interview, and then provides us with her own history-as-witness. She attended class every week, in the basement of St David's United Church in Woodstock, in their community hall. She remembers that it had a concrete floor, with simple chairs that were turned toward the wall to create a barre, and a class that ranged from about twelve for the early years, to about five for more advanced, senior classes. The training included ballet, tap and jazz, but for the most part Amy remembered and talked about ballet. 

Among her specific memories are of the range of costumes she and her cohorts were able to wear for recitals, which she realized only much later were all brought in by the teacher, and used repeatedly by succeeding generations of students, a kind of physically-embodied history of the school and of dance. She remembers that they were forever being repaired by the teacher, who mended tears in the tulle by sewing flowers, the costumes transforming their look over the years. She later learned, when she became a working dance historian, that the costumes dated back to the 1940s and had been used by the London Civic Ballet Theatre, the company started by Richard and Marion Errington. 

The most central figure in these early memories of training was her teacher, 'Miss Liliane,' (Liliane Marleau Graham, the daughter-in-law of Marion Errington, who had been Marion Graham in a prior marriage and whose son, Ron Graham, married Liliane), who taught Amy through all of these years, in that church. 'Miss Liliane' had a career as a professional dancer in musical theatre, CBC variety shows and the CNE Grandstand shows, toured in variety and military shows in the 1940s, worked with the London Civic Ballet Theatre touring through Southwestern Ontario, and had strong connections with the professional dance community beyond the region (such as taking master classes in Toronto with Gweneth Lloyd, Boris Volkoff, Celia Franca and Betty Oliphant). Amy remembers that this life experience was inextricably bound up with her teaching. 'Miss Liliane’ told stories about her experiences to illustrate points and to reinforce movements in class, to engage her students as they practised. She remembers that, while warming up for pointe work in her later teenage years, longer stories were told, and this time became something more than practice. 'Miss Liliane’ knew everyone, had seen everything, or so it seemed, and had brought that world to Woodstock. 

Amy also has strong memories of practising dance at home, in her family's large farmhouse dining room, which contained the record player and the piano. She would close the doors for privacy, move the dining room table to the side, put on the record player, and dance. She had, as she remembered it, no family present as an audience, but an imagined audience was there, in a particular place, watching. A significant memory and artifact from this performance history--and private performance is as important as any other--was a record in the house, of Broadway show tunes. She played this record endlessly when growing up, creating choreography based on everything she had seen and been taught, for an imagined audience. She still has that record; with the revival of the turntable, she can once again play those songs. 

Amy is quite clear in her memories, that she wanted to grow up to be Karen Kain; but there was another very strong influence on her performance culture, and dance education. The 1980s was the heyday of Hollywood dance films, and she watched and imitated these outside of class, for herself and for performance in her primary and high school. The significant film was Dirty Dancing, which she watched repeatedly and, as a trained dancer, could mine for choreography. The choreographer, she told me, was Kenny Ortega, and all of the dances from that film, including briefer classroom-teaching scenes that are interspersed throughout, were all used to add to her personal repertoire. She remembered that--in an instance of pure serendipity--the local video store had a tape of Kenny Ortega teaching dance, which she borrowed many times, and deconstructed for use. 

She did not keep all of this film-infused social dance choreography to herself. At school, as someone who had dance training, Amy was involved in the annual school musical, as performer and choreographer. In less-organized school cabarets, she and her regular partner, Travis Allison, learned and performed the dances that everyone watched on film. Amy talks also about high school dances, which were, not surprisingly, a significant part of the social life of a dancer, and she runs through the themes and rituals of this world briefly--graduations and proms, the 'Sadie Hawkins' dance, and more. And to tie the worlds of formal and informal dance training together, Amy ends by describing a surprise performance for 'Miss Liliane' by her senior dance students, who prepared a Dirty Dancing set for a recital, without her knowledge. Amy and her classmates came out in full costume, and invited their male partners up from the audience at the end of the evening. 

As a Coda for this interview, Amy talked about her attendance at the theatre, which was rare, but all the more significant for that reason. Clearly dance was her passion and what she wanted to see. There was not much opportunity to see theatre, though her parents took her whenever the opportunity presented itself. Proving the importance of such opportunities--she remembers vividly having to miss a professional ballet performance as a child because of illness, and still has the well-thumbed program that was brought home to her. But it's significant, also, that her parents were inveterate theatre-goers, not to the Stratford Festival (though it was close at hand), but to London, Ontario, to the regional Grand Theatre Company, where she remembers, on special occasions, being taken as a child to see A Christmas Carol with Barry Morse, and Arsenic and Old Lace, with William Hutt and John Neville as the two aunts, among other performances, particularly with East-coast performers. Her parents, she believes, had learned to be regular theatre-goers in Newfoundland, where the London Theatre Company in St John's, run by Leslie Yeo, built an audience and provided a cultural connection with theatrical culture when they were growing up. 

TRANSCRIPT

GATHERINGS:  ARCHIVAL AND ORAL HISTORIES OF PERFORMANCE 
First Gatherings Project; Interview with Amy Bowring by Stephen Johnson 

On 21 July 2021.  See website recording and introduction  

Full consent given by both parties for posting.  

***

[00:00:04.130] - Stephen 

So we'll begin. Amy, thank you so much for agreeing to do this. And I sent you a package of materials beforehand. I just wanted at the beginning of this conversation to ask you if you've read the document that I sent and the material that's on the website about consent and that you understand it and that you agree to it. 

[00:00:31.730] - Amy 

Yes, I agree. 

[00:00:33.270] - Stephen 

Thank you. That's now official. And the next thing to do is to ask you for some information about yourself, if you can just say what you do now and how you're involved in the project, but then also just where you're from and the gist of what it is we're going to be talking about. 

[00:00:57.060] - Amy 

Okay. So right now, I am the executive and curatorial director of Dance Collection Danse, a place that I have worked at in some capacity since 1993, when I was still an undergraduate student. And I am originally from a little place called Innerkip, Ontario, which is in Oxford County. So Southwestern Ontario. 

[00:01:27.010] - Stephen 

Good. Thank you. For anybody watching this or anybody reading the transcript. They already know what the questions I sent you in advance. And there aren't questions that we have to stick to. I can tell you without any confidence at all, because it's there to see - we never stick to the questions once we start talking. 

[00:01:52.570] - Amy 

Right. 

[00:01:53.690] - Stephen 

But we might as well start with them. So if you can give me some sense of just you've described yourself and just your own training and education and your own and then just give a sense of when you first started attending performance in your life and where and how and what. Let's talk about that a little bit. 

[00:02:16.640] - Amy 

Yeah. Well, I was a farmer's daughter. So growing up in rural Ontario, there wasn't a whole heap of access to the performing arts. The dance school that I studied at from the age of seven, so that would have been 1978, was the Errington Graham School of Dance. It was located in London, Ontario, and it was one of those schools that basically had a base city and then each night of the week, the owner, the teachers, would travel to different other rural locations, where they had schools set up, usually in church halls. 

[00:03:04.650] - Amy 

So Woodstock was on Friday nights. They also did Sarnia, St. Thomas, Ingersoll, maybe even Tillsonburg at one point. At a certain point, they started to amalgamate them. But the school had actually been around since 1917, and it ran until 2015, and at this point, it still holds the records for longest continuously run dance school in Canadian history. 

[00:03:35.150] - Stephen 

I'm sorry. Until 2015? 

[00:03:37.640] - Amy 

Yeah. 98 years. 

[00:03:40.330] - Stephen 

That's amazing. 

[00:03:41.500] - Amy 

It is amazing. It went through two generations. So it started with Marion Stark Graham, who then later divorced Mr. Graham and became Mrs. Errington, and she had two sons. One of the sons danced and the girl that he married was another dancer. So hence the Errington Graham name of the school came from the two generations - the mom, Marion, and her husband, Richard Errington. And then they passed the school on to Liliane Marleau, who had married one of their sons. So two generations there. Marion started this school in 1917, basically as a teenager herself. 

[00:04:35.450] - Amy 

And at one point in the 1920s, she got a gig on the Publix Circuit, which was a vaudeville circuit. So she was touring for two years. But the school continued to be run by her cousin, a woman named Gladys Tullette. And every day she'd be writing lesson plans to her cousin mailed from wherever she was on the Publix. And then she came back and picked up the reins again. So in 1936, she created the London Theatre Ballet. And this was an amateur dance group that performed primarily in London but also did some tours out to smaller centres. 

[00:05:29.090] - Amy 

She was also invited by Harvey Robb; he was the head of the music conservatory at the University of Western Ontario. And it was called the Western Ontario Conservatory of Music. But it is basically what is now the Music Department at UWO. He invited her to create a syllabus, a ballet syllabus for the once-a-week rural student. And so she developed this pulling from the Royal Academy of Dance (RAD), the Cecchetti system, Ned Wayburn's teachings. He was an American teacher [and choreographer]. 

[00:06:07.530] - Stephen 

Oh, my goodness. 

[00:06:08.730] - Amy 

Yeah. 

[00:06:09.950] - Stephen 

I say that because I know he was a big vaudeville.  

[00:06:15.250] - Amy 

Yeah. 

[00:06:15.620] - Stephen 

Huge Broadway, Broadway choreographer. 

[00:06:18.410] - Amy 

Yeah. So she gathered the sort of the best of the best from those teaching syllabi and created the Western Ontario Conservatory of Ballet syllabus. And this would have been around 1938. So at this point, we're pretty sure this is the oldest ballet syllabus created in Canada. And it was designed for that once-a-week rural student, because usually if you're an RAD student now you take classes at least twice a week, three times when you get into the higher grades. But that's just not possible when you're going from, you know, you're traveling out 50 to 100 km each night to these different places. 

[00:06:58.820] - Amy 

And without that system, and we've seen it repeated in different parts of the country, rural students would have had no access to ballet training. I mean, for a long time, she was the only person coming to Woodstock and to some of these other places. So she developed that in the late ’30s. And in the ’40s, her London Theatre Ballet also had a troop show contingent that would tour the training bases and perform for soldiers before they headed overseas. So those troops show ran throughout the entire Second World War. 

[00:07:44.630] - Amy 

And then by 1949, the company was given a civic charter and became the London Civic Ballet Theatre, and is definitely the first and probably the only dance company in London, Ontario, to be given a civic charter. So then they were performing a lot in the 1950s, again in the sort of rural areas, doing one night run-outs to different little places and performing regularly in London. And she would go, whenever the Ballets Russes came to Toronto, she would spend a week at the Royal Alex watching their performances and taking notes. 

[00:08:27.090] - Amy 

And she also had a bit of a photographic memory when it came to restaging movement so she could set things. And then she would bring someone like Leon Danelian, for example. She'd bring a Ballets Russes dancer to London to clean up the work after she had set it. So they were doing things like Fokine’s Les Sylphides and Carnival and little dances like that. And they became part of the repertoire along with her own choreography. And so that company ran, I guess, until about the mid 1950s, ’55, ’56. 

[00:09:05.940] - Amy 

And then they just sort of concentrated on teaching at that point. So when I got there in the late 1970s, this whole history had existed. And when I was a kid growing up, Miss Liliane, as we called her, would tell us these stories. And some of the examiners that used to come out were people like Gweneth Lloyd and Bettina Byers and Boris Volkoff, so big names in ballet in Canada at that time, they were the examiners. And she would tell us these stories about touring and performing. 

[00:09:49.610] - Amy 

And I grew up with these stories. And I grew up hearing these names like Volkoff and Celia Franca and Betty Oliphant. And so by the time I got to university to study dance after high school – so I trained with her throughout my childhood and teenage years and then went to York to do the dance program there. When I got into my dance history class in first year, and we got to the Canadian part of it, I knew these names. I recognized these names, and I think that's part of what got me to where I am right now. 

[00:10:34.830] - Amy 

And the reason I know the history of the school so well is because my first job with Dance Collection Danse in 1993 was researching London, Ontario's dance history. And my dad was living there at the time, so I had somewhere to stay. So [DCD co-founders] Lawrence and Miriam sent me off to London, and I interviewed all kinds of different people who had been on the board or had performed in the company. I interviewed Dorothy Scruton and Bernice Harper and Dorothy Carter. So all of these people who were part of that early germination of ballet and dance in London, Ontario in that mid-20th-century period. 

[00:11:21.670] - Amy 

So it was an incredible learning experience. I spent time at the UWO archives because they have a playbill collection there. So I just spent days just combing through it, making records of what touring companies had come through because of the Grand Trunk Railway – it was a natural stop on the line. 

[00:11:47.020] - Stephen 

Right. 

[00:11:47.270] - Amy 

So the Ballets Russes performed there, and Ballet Theatre. 

[00:11:50.770] - Stephen 

And, oh, yes, I think we very much undervalue just how widely people toured, certainly across Southern Ontario, but really across Canada, because of the railway system. We think that it somehow started at a certain point, but in fact, it was more of a touring organization early on. 

[00:12:17.740] - Amy 

Yeah. Exactly. And there were way more stations than there are today. 

[00:12:24.850] - Stephen 

And railways. 

[00:12:26.530] - Amy 

Yeah. We have records in the archives of dancers outside the Whitby train station. And now that station is an art gallery because it's not used as a train station. But there's lots of little places like that that had stations that were stops. There would be a little theatre and a station and that made it a place to stop and perform. 

[00:12:46.440] - Stephen 

Yeah. Could I take you back a bit? There are a couple of questions I have based on everything that you've just said. I'd like to know if you can remember exactly where you went early on when you were taking dance. Was it a church basement and what did that church basement look like? And who else was there? 

[00:13:12.340] - Amy 

Right. So it was St. David's United Church on Springbank Avenue in Woodstock. And it was a modern church for the time. It had probably been built in the ’60s. And so the main floor, there was sort of that kind of typical community hall area that we used. Concrete floors. We had those wooden chairs that were typical of school classrooms. We took those chairs and spun them around and that was our barre. So you put your hand on the chair, and that was your barre. 

[00:13:56.150] - Amy 

And that's where we did our open houses. So that was kind of the recital that we did at the end of the year each spring. And so there was a little room off the main hall that we could change in. That was sort of our dressing room for recitals. And it wasn't until I was an adult that I realized this, but Miss Liliane would bring all the costumes. So it wasn't a situation where parents were forking over hundreds of dollars for costumes. She had a stack of costumes that she would bring. 

[00:14:27.790] - Amy 

She had hats and canes because we did ballet, tap and jazz. So she had all of these different costumes and props that could be used. And it wasn't until later, when I was looking at photos of the London Civic Ballet Theatre in the ’50s that I realized that those tutus were the tutus I wore as a teenager. 

[00:14:49.070] - Stephen 

Right. 

[00:14:49.950] - Amy 

And every time there was a little tear in the tulle, she would fix it by taking a little fabric flower on a wire and wrap so the little flower would cover up the tear and the tulle and the wire would sort of help pull the two edges together. And that was how things were fixed. 

[00:15:11.390] - Stephen 

So eventually the entire thing was just a mass of flowers. I mean, if it kept tearing-  

[00:15:16.390] - Amy 

Yeah. Over the years, they acquired more flowers. 

[00:15:21.770] - Stephen 

That's great. 

[00:15:23.100] - Amy 

But they were tastefully done. And she would add a few in non-tears so that there was some symmetry to what was going on. 

[00:15:30.940] - Stephen 

And you say that you didn't realize until much later. I think you just said that in the moment when you were young, you didn't really know that you were wearing history. 

[00:15:43.310] - Amy 

No, not at all. 

[00:15:45.690] - Stephen 

And maybe- Although you have said that many of these stories, you had these stories told to you. But were they during class, were they when you were younger, or was it a little older, perhaps when you started listening to these stories? 

[00:16:01.670] - Amy 

The stories were there. So I was only seven when I started. So I guess I remember the stories a bit later, they would pepper the class, right. Like something might happen in class that would remind her of something. Or she might tell a story to illustrate a point. And then when I was about 13 or 14 and I started to do pointe work, at the end of class, she would often – because it was a small class, it was like maybe five students – she would stretch our feet. 

[00:16:35.460] - Amy 

And in the process of her sitting there and stretching all of our feet, she had this captive audience. So that's what I really remember about the stories. 

[00:16:46.670] - Stephen 

That's very just the kind of image I'd be looking for. That's a very interesting- That you'd be sitting there stretching and then that's when she got to reminisce. 

[00:16:59.090] - Amy 

Exactly. And we were a captive audience. We were so engaged. And she was such a delightful and warm person anyway that you just wanted to be around her. 

[00:17:11.510] - Stephen 

And you say there were five, maybe five people. 

[00:17:14.480] - Amy 

Yeah. Maybe five or six. 

[00:17:15.900] - Stephen 

And was that true early on as well? When you [started], all the way through, or was it a larger group of people? 

[00:17:21.130] - Amy 

Definitely a bit like, the class size was probably at least twice that when I was younger and then you hit the teens and that's when you start to lose people, right. People become interested in boys and other stuff like that. 

[00:17:35.940] - Stephen 

Sure. 

[00:17:36.440] - Amy 

Right. It's just the hardcores who stay at it. 

[00:17:40.610] - Stephen 

Yeah. No, that's very interesting. 

[00:17:43.910] - Amy 

But yeah, it was every Friday night from the age of seven until I was 19. And sometimes we had – Friday nights were also the nights when high school dances happened. So sometimes we would have all of our dresses or outfits for going to a dance with us. And off we would go to the high school after class. Dance some more. 

[00:18:10.590] - Stephen 

And you know what, while we're on that, tell me about the school dances, because that's a part of your performance history. 

[00:18:19.230] - Amy 

Yeah. It's true. We probably had a school dance once a month sponsored by the student council. And they all had themes of some kind. So things were naturally attached to Christmas and Valentine's Day, and Halloween would be a dress up party. But there were also things like, I think November was the Sadie Hawkins dance, where it was appropriate for a girl to ask a boy to go to the dance. So this would be the mid to late ’80s that I was in high school. And then in March, there was usually a “Fun in the Sun” dance. 

[00:18:57.540] - Amy 

So even though it was really cold, you put on your shorts and your best sort of beach outfit and went. There would be semi-formal and then formal dances at Christmas. And then at the end of the year, that was the graduation dance. So the grade twelves and thirteens would do that one. And that was sort of their prom. So they'd get super dressed up. 

[00:19:20.180] - Stephen 

Right. And what kind of dance was that? 

[00:19:24.030] - Amy 

That would have a different theme. The proms always had, like Under the Sea, or there was one that was Phantom of the Opera when that was popular. And so someone would paint a mural and the decorations would reflect that. 

[00:19:41.980] - Stephen 

But the kind of dance was it- Not everybody present had taken ballet, tap and jazz, so they were just doing, honestly, I know the answer to this, but I'm just the interviewer. I remember Sadie Hawkins dances, which is a resonance idea. Boy, there's a lot to talk about there, but the whole idea that you'd go to this dance. Well, what kind of dance were you doing? Well, nobody had learned how to dance, right? 

[00:20:23.600] - Amy 

Yeah. So one of my close friends growing up was a boy named Travis Allison, and our farms were on different concessions. Our families were friends. And so we were close growing up. And his mother and my father had taught each of us how to, what we called, travel dance, right, where you actually moved around the room. So sometimes when I would dance with him, we could do that. But for the most part, the students for dancing, like typical ’80s teenagers where arms around the neck, the girl put her arms around your neck, and the boy put his arms around your waist, and you just kind of shuffled to the music. 

[00:21:20.310] - Amy 

That's the thing. Social dancing lessons didn't really exist anymore by that point. Right. By the ’80s. And so it was just the free form movement. 

[00:21:37.410] - Stephen 

Well, it's very interesting that you say that that's what I experienced as well. What social dance? I recall that there was briefly, in some organized fashion, sort of some vague notion of square dancing, which no one ever used. 

[00:21:58.950] - Amy 

No. 

[00:21:59.860] - Stephen 

And then a very basic sort of ballroom dancing as well. This would have been in, like, phys ed. 

[00:22:06.950] - Amy 

Yeah. 

[00:22:08.410] - Stephen 

I don't know if I'm only saying that about myself in case it triggers a memory with you. But otherwise, nothing. 

[00:22:19.390] - Amy 

The dance component in phys ed, I remember one year was learning a piece of choreography to the song Kung Fu Fighting. 

[00:22:28.490] - Stephen 

Great. 

[00:22:29.930] - Amy 

So to those of us who actually had dance lessons, it wasn't dancing. 

[00:22:34.250] - Stephen 

No. 

[00:22:34.750] - Amy 

But there were other outlets for us, like for example, there were high school musicals. And as one of a pretty small handful of people who had dance training, I managed to get the role of choreographer for those in my last two years of high school and also performed in them. And my friend Travis and I would do, like, the coffeehouse cabaret things. And basically, I was emulating things that I saw in the movies. When I was 16, Dirty Dancing came out and everybody loved that film. So I would just sort of emulate things that I saw on there. 

[00:23:21.590] - Amy 

And in fact, when I was in grade… so I guess it was grade twelve. It was after Dirty Dancing had come out, the girls that I took ballet, tap and jazz with with Miss Liliane, we got a group of boys together as our partners, boys that we had watched in phys ed and deemed to be fairly physically adept. And one of the girls happened to be the daughter of the Reverend for the United Church, for St. David's United Church. So she was able to get us into our dance studio, which was the church hall on other weekdays after school. 

[00:24:04.610] - Amy 

And that's when we would teach these boys. We just chose a song from the Dirty Dancing soundtrack. And we emulated the dancing that we saw in that movie. We just sort of reconstructed it, created this choreography, did it all as a surprise. And so when we had our open house recital that year, the boys were in the audience, as if they were part of the families watching. And then right at the end, somebody secretly put on the music, and the boys came up, and we girls came out in our Dirty Dancing costumes. 

[00:24:45.110] - Amy 

And we did this dance for Miss Liliane as a surprise. And every time I saw her – because I stayed in touch with her right up until she passed away in 2008 – she talked about that. She always talked about that. It was one of those great moments for her where her students had snuck off and done choreography in secret and presented it at our open house. 

[00:25:13.560] - Stephen 

That's a great story. Just very interesting. And it brings together, to me, it brings together the dancing that you're taking, the fact that you're in a school, a private school, taking dance. But then having this social dance phenomenon that's going on and you're marrying those two, which is a relatively, I think, unusual thing to do, although maybe not so much in the musical part. The high school musical is, I think it's figured prominently in almost every interview I've done so far, because it's so much a part of public school culture. Whether it's attendance or involvement. 

[00:26:00.900] - Stephen 

And in your case, it would be involvement, the fact that you had a leg up, so to speak, because you were coming in and you were a pro, you could choreograph and dance. Yeah. I just want to go back two minutes when you say you and Travis danced in something. A coffee. Something. 

[00:26:23.720] - Amy 

Yeah. It was called a coffee house. 

[00:26:26.630] - Stephen 

Wow. 

[00:26:28.610] - Amy 

So the cafeteria was set up, the tables were set up and a little stage was set up, and there would be singing, dancing, instrument playing, that kind of thing. 

[00:26:42.750] - Stephen 

So it was a small, informal variety show. 

[00:26:45.570] - Amy 

Yeah. Exactly. 

[00:26:46.330] - Stephen 

It was informal, I mean, someone organized it, but it was student led, and you had to sign up in advance to go out? 

[00:26:56.440] - Amy 

Yeah, exactly. 

[00:27:00.390] - Stephen 

Dancing that the two of you did in that environment, were they things that you got off television, picked up wherever you picked it up from? 

[00:27:11.330] - Amy 

Yeah. So again, it was, so, in Dirty Dancing there are many, many scenes where Patrick Swayze and his partner are instructing social dance classes, salsa, fox trot, things like that. So that was what we wanted to emulate. So that's all Kenny Ortega's choreography. So I stole pieces of his choreography and put them into something new for the two of us that we could do. 

 [00:27:40.170] - Stephen 

Great. 

[00:27:41.110] - Amy 

But there happened to be at the local video store, I found a how-to video from Kenny Ortega on how to salsa, how to do a few different things. So I watched that and taught myself how to do some of these dances and then taught Travis how to do them. And then we did them at the coffee house. 

 [00:28:07.490] - Stephen 

I'm not speechless, but I am speechless. I think that's just so interesting to me, and it's interesting to me because of the serendipity of it. If Dirty Dancing hadn't come out, where would you all have been? And if there didn't happen to be a video tape - and I also love that it's a video tape completely. You can't even get a machine anymore. No, this is a video tape which was probably worn out even by the time you looked at it. Right. And so who knows what the speed was like when you were playing it and you were learning these dances and it happened to be there. 

[00:28:47.900] - Stephen 

And if I hadn't been there, that would have changed things. I just find the serendipity of all of this really interesting. And one other thing about what you just said is how these small snippets- I've seen Dirty Dancing more than once, and I don't remember, it isn't burned into my memory- the small parts when Patrick Swayze is teaching people how to social dance, but it is to you. And you took those parts out. 

[00:29:21.500] - Amy 

Yeah. I was an impressionable 16-year-old when it came out. And it hit me at a time when – because for a long time growing up, I wanted to be Karen Kain. I wanted to be a ballet dancer. And I auditioned for the National Ballet School and for the RWB School when I was a kid and didn't get into either, because I don't actually have a ballet body, and flexibility is something I always struggled with. But after those disappointments, Ms. Liliane said to me, ballet is not the only type of dance that you can do. 

[00:29:59.780] - Amy 

There are a lot of other types of dance that you can have a career at. And that was quite a eureka moment for me, to hear those words and realize, okay, just keep doing it and have faith that somehow it will turn out in the end, that somehow if you keep this ambition that you will get to where you want to be. And so some of those movies, those dance movies of the ’80s, came out at a time when I was starting to realize that maybe it was possible to have a career in the arts, even if you were from a small farming community. That that didn't have to dictate what you could be. 

[00:30:50.670] - Amy 

This place that you were growing up in that had very little in the way of arts. And certainly it wasn't promoted largely at my high school, other than the musicals. I was one of the kids who, growing up in an 1865 big farmhouse, we had a formal dining room, and that's where the record player was and the piano that I learned to play on. And so as a kid, I would push the dining room table and the chairs off to one side of the room and then I had floor space for dancing and creating choreographies. 

[00:31:32.370] - Amy 

I had a record album that I still have. It was Broadway hits, and it was given to me as a gift. It had things like Joel Gray singing, Wilkommen from Cabaret, and it had Ethel Merman singing from Gypsy. Right. So I played this album all the time. Sweet Charity was on there, and I just would make up dances to these songs in my dining room, sometimes using the piano as a prop, and just create worlds and these choreography. 

[00:32:13.910] - Stephen 

And did you I mean, what age, I mean, right through or early on? 

[00:32:18.800] - Amy 

Yeah, from eight to high school. It wasn't just that Broadway album. There were other things, too. But mostly that Broadway album. 

[00:32:31.140] - Stephen 

That's very interesting and great that you still have it. Boy, there's a historical artifact. 

[00:32:35.880] - Amy 

Well, this was the thing that I kept it because it was so meaningful, even though I eventually didn't have a record player. And then just a few years ago, my older teenage son wanted a record player because vinyl was coming back into popularity. So I've been able to put that back on again. It's been great to just reminisce and have those nostalgia moments with this particular album. 

[00:33:02.050] - Stephen 

Yeah, that's great. And when you were dancing at home, that's an interesting image to me that- I grew up in an 1860 farm house and also a very small one. But to have that, the record player was there in the dining room and the dining room and the everything's all in one room, and you can move it aside. And there's your studio. Did you have an audience when you were doing that, or did everybody actually go away? It's a thing that comes into my head to ask, because I think a lot of people have that experience. 

[00:33:45.830] - Stephen 

Do you have privacy? 

[00:33:48.410] - Amy 

So the dining room had two doors, one to the hallway and one to the kitchen, and I would close both doors and nobody ever came in. I mean, my dad was probably off in the fields or off in the barn. My older brother was probably with him, my little brother was probably playing Lego and couldn't care less what I was doing. And my mom was busy running a household. So it was my private space. And I didn't really want an audience. I wouldn't necessarily go and get my mom and say, “Okay, watch what I can do.” 

[00:34:17.430] - Stephen 

No, I understand. 

[00:34:19.140] - Amy 

It was just my space. And it definitely was kind of like this private world for me. 

[00:34:26.360] - Stephen 

But I'm going to take a guess. And I say this only because it only has dawned on me in the last few years. Somebody- They could all hear everything you were doing. 

[00:34:37.390] - Amy 

Yeah. 

[00:34:39.050] - Stephen 

And I always remember whenever I did anything in my room, any kind of performance, anything like that, it never occurred to me that everything I did could be heard. I really did feel private, out of sight, out of mind. But the flip side of that is that sometimes you're so wrapped up in the performance you do, you don't care who's around. You don't even notice. 

[00:35:01.970] - Amy 

Yeah. Well, and to me, in that space, that was my stage. And I envisioned an audience, right. Like I knew where front was. And it really was an imaginary theatre for me. And I really performed in there like I was performing for an audience, for sure. 

[00:35:25.270] - Stephen 

Yes. Well, that's very interesting. I'd like to turn now just for a few moments to performances that you attended. So you've been talking about yourself as performer and what about yourself as audience member? 

[00:35:42.930] - Amy 

Yeah. I grew up parented by two pre-confederation Newfoundlanders and so in the ’40s and ’50s, they had grown up with the London Theatre Company, Leslie Yeo and that crowd. And every season they would come to St. John's, and they would perform actually in my dad's school, Bishop Feild School [sic]. They would perform there and my parents grew up watching them, so my parents always appreciated theatre. Originally, when my parents moved from Newfoundland in 1969, they actually lived in Oakville; my dad worked in Toronto for the family business. 

 [00:36:33.220] - Amy 

And then in 1975, he decided to become a farmer. So that was when we moved to Innerkip. And right from the get go, they were season’s ticket holders to the Grand Theatre in London. So I don't know, once a month, maybe they went to the theatre and a babysitter came to look after the three of us. And then occasionally we would get to go, too. Or if one of them was sick, I got to go because I was the one who was more interested in performing arts than my brothers were, so usually I got to go. 

[00:37:17.710] - Amy 

I have two very specific Grand Theatre performances in my head, and I don't know which one I saw first or if they were in the same season because in my mind, they're all around the same time period. But Barry Morse did A Christmas Carol, and my parents went to see it as their season’s ticket holders and loved it so much that they thought the three of us should go see it. So they bought a whole other set of tickets and off we went to see Barry Morse as Scrooge. But also around that same time they did Arsenic Old Lace and Bill Hutt and John Neville played the Aunts in drag. 

[00:38:04.540] - Amy 

And they thought it was so wonderful again, they thought, oh, the children really must see this. And they brought us all to that. I can also remember them taking us to performances. Sometimes there would be performances for kids and youth. In the bottom part of the Grand, there's sort of like a small black box theatre that I feel like was in the basement. I remember you had to go downstairs to get to it and Charlie Tomlinson did something. And of course, whenever there were Newfoundlanders around that were theatre people, we were notified, like, every time Gordon Pinsent came on the television, it was, “Look, kids, Gordon Pinsent, come and see, come and see the Newfoundlanders.” 

[00:38:53.230] - Amy 

So yeah, I remember Charlie Tomlinson doing something. I guess he must have been – maybe he directed it, I don't remember if he performed it. I think it had to do with Dunkirk. I think it was a play that was somehow about Dunkirk and the Channel. Anyhow, I only have vague memories of it so I must have been pretty little when I saw it. But, yeah, that was an important part of our growing up years – that they got us to the theatre. I also remember seeing Eric Wolfe perform when I was a kid, and he was my age. 

[00:39:31.140] - Amy 

So that was an interesting moment for me to see a kid my own age, performing in a real theatre, a proper theatre. And I saw him a few times in different things. So it was clear that one could do this, even if you were a kid. Yeah, there was potential for that. And then occasionally, the National Ballet of Canada would tour through. Actually, the very first time that they came – the first time that I was going to be taken, they were doing Giselle at the Grand. 

[00:40:13.580] - Amy 

It was the winter time, and in the week or so leading up to this theatre experience, my mom had the flu and she kept saying to me, “Don't come near me. You'll get sick, you've got to stay away.” And of course, little kid, I just wanted to hug my mom, be with my mom. She kept saying, you've got to stay away. And sure enough, the night or two before we were to go to the theatre I got the flu. My mom said I had a fever. 

[00:40:47.030] - Amy 

My mom said, “There's no way I can't take you. We're sitting in a box with other people. You could get them infected. You just can't come.” And I went upstairs, I put on my dress, my tights, my Mary Janes and I was like, ready to go to the theatre. And she said, “I just can't take you.” And I cried, and I cried, and I cried. And of course, my older brother got to go in my place, which was insult to injury, right. But she did bring me back a souvenir program, which I still have, which is completely dog-eared and falling away from its binding. 

[00:41:29.670] - Amy 

Because I poured through that thing, I memorized every dancer that was in it. This would be like the 79/80 season. I memorized certain bios like this thing was precious, beyond precious to me. 

[00:41:51.770] - Stephen 

I can understand the insult, adding insult to injury that your brother went to. Probably. 

[00:41:59.010] - Amy 

He did like it, which was good. And he would tell me that his favorite thing was when they 'diddle-diddled' across the stage, which means the bourrée. And, of course, in Giselle there's tons of that in the second act of bourréeing across the stage as if floating ethereal creatures across the mist. 

[00:42:22.470] - Stephen 

Yes. And is that what he called it? Diddle-diddle? So he did tell you about it. 

[00:42:28.880] - Amy 

 Oh, he did tell me about it, yeah, and he did enjoy it. 

[00:42:37.330] - Stephen 

The importance of that artifact. Well, it's just so important to me because in effect, you created the performance. 

[00:42:48.970] - Amy 

Yeah. Right. 

[00:42:50.200] - Stephen 

By going through it in that way, you imagined it just as surely as if you were there. And it was a completely different thing. But it's still a performance. 

 [00:43:02.660] - Amy 

Yeah. 

[00:43:03.140] - Stephen 

Well, that's very interesting. Yeah. Maybe we're reaching an end to this. I don't know if there was anything else that you specifically wanted to mention or wanted to talk about. 

[00:43:17.460] - Amy 

Well, I would say that I thought the theatre was a very magical place. The Grand Theatre with the boxes and the mural above the proscenium. I thought this place was like a palace, some of those gilded moldings and that kind of thing. And so I remember, as a young kid just thinking, what a magical place this was. The lobby was – that was modern. That was humdrum. But when you went through those doors into this sort of gilded space – that made a huge impression on me. And I thought this was a very magical place to be. 

[00:44:04.210] - Stephen 

As compared with the church basement or many of the other places that you're in. You are also not the only one to describe that specifically. And just in the people I've talked with, just the idea of walking into that space, even just this last part you said, the idea that the lobby not so much, but you open those doors, you went into this space you are walking into another world. That's very interesting. 

[00:44:33.120] - Amy 

Yeah. Absolutely. 

[00:44:36.230] - Stephen 

But unusual or rare. And maybe that's part of why it was special is that it was rare because it wasn't a place where you performed. No, this was a place that you performed. But this was not the place where you performed. Which I guess reinforces when you mentioned the performer who was your age, that perhaps gave you the idea that you might possibly perform in a space like that. 

[00:45:10.960] - Amy 

Yeah. Exactly. Seeing him as a person my own age in that space, it did kind of make things real and sort of like, “Okay, this is a possibility. I can continue to aspire to this. This might happen one day if I just keep working at it.” Not knowing how things would go or that an injury would change that trajectory. But still, it made it possible. It made it feasible in my mind. 

[00:45:44.890] - Stephen 

Well, I think that this is a good place is to end. And I want to thank you very much. And thanks a lot for doing this. I really appreciate it.  

[00:45:55.480] - Amy 

My pleasure. 

A Conversation with Gabrielle Houle

On Wednesday, 11 August 2021, at 11am EDT, Stephen Johnson talked with Gabrielle Houle about her first experiences with Performance--her 'First Gatherings.' A recording of that conversation is included below, in full. Gabrielle is a teacher, performer, director and designer, who has studied commedia and mask-making, and has interviewed many of the master creators of masks in Italy, France and Switzerland as part of her research projects. You can find out more about her life, career, scholarship and performance practice here.

Gabrielle was born and raised in the province of Québec, spending most of her childhood first in Boucherville, then in Québec City. Her earliest memory of performance is her attendance, when she was 5 or 6 (c1986), at an outdoor puppet show. She does not remember the story, but she remembers that she saw the performance looking down from above. She remembers only one character, Coquette the Skunk, who was pre-occupied with her appearance, and the fact that no one appreciated her perfume. She was so taken with this character that it became a part of her ongoing conversation with her parents at home, and a part of her family life, to refer to her; even today, Coquette will be referred to by her family when they smell a skunk. She was at this time given a puppet of a skunk, a prized possession that she still has. 

The second experience in the theatre that Gabrielle remembers was also puppetry, though very different. It was a performance of Le secret de Miris, produced by Théâtre de l'Avant-Pays in 1987, when she was 6 years old, at La Maison Théâtre, a venerable theatre for young audiences. She attended this production twice, once with her school, and once with her parents. What she remembers of this experience is very different from her first memory--she remembers that it was slow, and dark, that she had a feeling of confusion while watching it. She remembers that she didn't like it, although she was taken twice, she believes because it was a high-profile production by a well-known company. But she does remember one set-piece very well: a rock that was illuminated from inside, an image that mystified her. This performance clearly had a far different effect than that first puppet-show, though in its way it was just as memorable. 

Though not a performance, Gabrielle remembered a third event as a significant episode in her relationship with performance. In 1987, she went with her parents on a trip to Europe that included Venice, where she remembers, vividly, going into a street-level, storefront mask-making workshop. Her parents each purchased traditional commedia masks, and she was allowed to purchase one as well. She remembers how difficult it was to choose, and finally picking one covered with feathers. Along with Coquette, she still has this mask. 

We turned from Gabrielle's early memories of attending theatre, to doing theatre. Until she majored in theatre at Laval University, Gabrielle's performance practice was entirely extra-curricular. She took courses in Montréal, at a Community Arts organization called Nos Voix Nos Visages (which still exists). When she moved to Quebec City at the age of 9 or 10, she was involved in extracurricular classes at Les Ateliers Imagine, in the city's old town, where she took classes in both theatre and visual arts. While she was actively involved in theatre at both her high school and in her CEGEP, these too were primarily extra-curricular. 

We talked in particular about her experiences at her Catholic High School, where she was taught by nuns, who organized an active and wide-ranging series of productions out of class 

time. These included Les Fridolinades, a well-known satirical review series by Gratien Gélinas that had run from 1938-46, that contained many political references she knows she did not understand. And it included a production of Les Belles-sœurs, by Michel Tremblay, a play with themes and language that she would have thought would have made it unsuitable to a Catholic school; but while some language may have been altered for this audience, she has no memory of extraordinary censorship. This production in particular, she wrote to me afterward, 'speaks to an openness from the school and its understanding of the importance of this play for Québécois and Canadian theatre.' The school also produced Twelve Angry Men (by Reginald Rose) and Chantecler (by Edmond Rostand), among other plays that exposed her to a broad range of styles, and to the full history of theatre, all produced with all-female casts. 

Gabrielle acknowledged the important influence of her Great-Aunt, who was an art conservationist, and a nun who lived in the main convent for the same religious order as those who taught her in school. Her Aunt loved vaudeville, loved to improvise, and was a keen performer who often acted in productions produced at the convent, usually playing the male roles. She encouraged Gabrielle's love of art and theatre, talked with her often about it, loved to hear about Gabrielle's studies, and about her work on masks. Her Great-Aunt, as Gabrielle says, gave her strong advice as a young adult--to become more involved in comedy, and not the serious drama that she favoured as a teenager. From the age of twenty, this advice changed her life. 

Gabrielle wanted to end our conversation (as others have in these interviews) with an acknowledgement of the importance of a specific production that was life-changing to her as a young adult. In 2001, also at the age of twenty, she attended Montreal's Festival TransAmériques (FTA), and witnessed Rwanda94, a multi-media production about the Rwandan genocide. It included giant puppets, raw video reporting, docudrama performances, and eyewitness accounts by survivors, sitting on stage and speaking from the audience. It was a kind of theatre that she had not seen before, and that made her realize how strong the visceral, the emotional effect of live performance can be, how much it can make us understand a historical event, as compared with the distancing effects of learning about these events by other means, through newspapers and television. 

She ends the interview by saying that she still thinks about this performance, randomly as she walks, and reflects on its effect on her, then and now. 

A full transcript will be posted later.

A Conversation with Kelsey Jacobson

On Tuesday, 1 June 2021, at 11am EDT, Stephen Johnson talked with Kelsey Jacobson about her first experiences with Performance--her 'First Gatherings.' That conversation is included below, in full. You can find out more about her life, scholarship and performance practice here. 

Kelsey was born and raised in Calgary, Alberta, attending public schools there until moving to Kingston for university. Her first significant memory of attending a theatrical performance, as her younger self would have defined it, was dressing up, at the age of 9 or 10, to go with her father to a production of Evita. This was a memorable occasion because it was unprecedented, and, as she understands it now, something that was meant for adults. Her memory of attendance is clear, and special; but the show itself is missing. Kelsey, however, drew a distinction between attending a performance like this, which was rare until later in her teenage years, and creating theatre, which she was involved in from the age of 8, in Grade 2, when a memorable teacher in her elementary school began a program of theatre that was all-inclusive. She remembers that the school produced two musicals each year, with universal involvement for all students, backstage, onstage, in the cast and in the chorus, with time in and out of class devoted to practising the music, learning the lines, creating the costumes and props, and rehearsing. She remembers up to 500 students performing a full evening's entertainment, for a run of two performances, the stage filling the cafeteria, opening out onto a gymnasium that held the audience. The complexity of these productions, in her account, is impressive, and her admiration for that teacher, Mr. Morris, well-deserved. These productions helped to give Kelsey for her love for performance, and her commitment to it from then on, through junior-high and high-school, through her attendance at productions in Calgary as a teenager, and in particular through her involvement in Artstrek, run by Theatre Alberta, which she remembers as being completely welcoming to all young people as they found their way into the arts. She attended this program, taught in it, and learned from it. As I listened to all of this, I was struck by the changes made in the interests and values of young people by particularly innovative teachers, and by the inclusive and community-oriented definition of the theatrical culture introduced. One last significant event, prior to heading off to university: in her last year of high school, Kelsey had the lead in the school play, and one evening, after the performance, flowers were waiting for her from Mr Morris. 

A full transcript will be posted later.

A Conversation with Annie Gibson

On Wednesday, 2 June 2021, at 11am EDT, Stephen Johnson talked with Annie Gibson about her first experiences with Performance--her 'First Gatherings.' That conversation is included below, in full. You can find out more about her life and career here.

Annie grew up in Toronto, in a family of doctors, and with a playwright in the house, and is now in charge of the leading publisher of plays in Canada. Her first memory of a theatrical experience was a production of Peter Pan at (most likely) the Shaw Festival, though all she remembers is the small light that was Tinker-Bell, and how it grew when the audience clapped. More complete--and indelible--was the memory of being taken to see both Cats and Phantom of the Opera, when she was, as she said, likely too young to understand either. But she does remember that in both cases, she sat in the front row of the theatre, and in both cases, was sufficiently prepared to know what was happening on stage--and what was going to happen. Her mother (she checked) remembers that during Phantom, she kept looking around at the chandelier from her seat, waiting through the entire evening for it to fall. These are the kinds of experiences that were memorable to her at that age, though in all likelihood she attended other theatre. Annie also remembers the influential experience of a summer program at the Young People's Theatre, 'Behind the Scenes' Camp, and participating in the technical theatre program--a total of two young people signed up, everyone else choosing the acting program--and having the opportunity to make, among other wonders, a set design maquette. 

Our conversation moved on to some later memories, not the earliest but perhaps the most important. Annie remembers attending a production of Anita Majumdar's Fish Eyes, when she was in her early 20s, and being struck by the intimacy of the space (Theatre Passe Muraille's back space), by the intimacy of the audience (in her memory, there was no one else present), by the way in which the performance combined drama and dance, and finally, how it allowed her to identify strongly with the protagonist while at the same time understanding how different the subject matter was from her own life. Just so, her experience of attending a production of Dennis Foon's New Canadian Kid, as a young adult surrounded by small children, a lesson to her in what theatre for young people can do. There was a sense, in reminiscing about these later experiences, that Annie at that time in her life was discovering the theatre she did not see when she was young--though she emphasized that those early experiences of large-scale musicals were life-changing, much-loved, and in fact also intimate in their way, because she was so close to the stage, and sufficiently prepared to understand and appreciate the practice of making theatre. Even now, she says, sitting at the back of a large theatre just isn't for her--theatre needs to be up close and personal. 

At the end of our talk, Annie made a point of talking about the last performance she saw before the pandemic shut down all theatres, The Negroes are Congregating, by Natasha Adiyana Morris--because of the sadness of its loss, and her belief that it effectively dealt with so many issues that have been front and centre since, issues that have not had the benefit of this theatrical voice. 

See below for a full interview transcript.

GATHERINGS:  ARCHIVAL AND ORAL HISTORIES OF PERFORMANCE
First Gatherings Project; Interview with Annie Gibson by Stephen Johnson

[00:00:06.110] - Stephen Johnson
Thank you very much for agreeing to do this, Annie. I really appreciate it. And I want to ask you if you've read the consent materials and to know that you do consent.

[00:00:22.230] - Annie Gibson
Yes, I do consent.

[00:00:22.230] - Stephen Johnson
Thank you so much. And now I would like to begin by asking you for just a little precis of your background - where you were born, raised if we're going to talk about early experiences and performance, just where you come from.

[00:00:41.370] - Annie Gibson
So I was born in Hamilton but didn't stay there. My parents, they were both doctors and had done medical residencies at McMaster Hamilton. I don't know, I wasn't born. After they finished school they worked for the Salvation Army for ten years and traveled around the world doing medical work and got pregnant with me while they were in Kenya and thought maybe they'd have me there, but then realized they were the only doctors in like a 100 miles radius and were nervous about bearing their own child. So they returned home to Canada to the only hospital they knew and felt comfortable at. I was born in Hamilton, and quite quickly afterwards we moved to Port Hope, Ontario, and then quite quickly after that moved to Baltimore, Ontario. So I spent my very young, formative years in sort of small town Ontario, and then moved to Toronto when I was nine or ten and have been here ever since. I went to a local high school, which I adore. It's called Harbord Collegiate, and everyone thinks I say Harvard and are very impressed that I went to Harvard for high school, but then I have to correct them. And then I went to U of T for my University.

I was a student at Victoria College and studied - History was my major. And I minored in English and Classics. So I don't have a drama background other than classical Roman and Greek theatre However, my mom, when I was about, I don't know, seven or eight, decided that she didn't really want to be a doctor anymore and that her true passion was playwrighting. And that's one of the reasons we moved to Toronto - is it's hard to break into Canadian theater when you live in a small town, Ontario. And she was like, 'We could be closer to the theaters and to the action and to the culture'. And so we came to Toronto partly for her career. And I think it was a good move. I think it has served all of us very well.

[00:02:40.400] - Stephen Johnson
And just for the record, your mother's name is?

[00:02:43.320] - Annie Gibson
Oh, yeah, it's Florence Gibson MacDonald. Yeah. She writes delightful plays, although these days she sort of moved away from playwrighting and now wants to write novels. So she's working on that. It's everyone's sort of dream - to move off and do something else. I think she just will keep reinventing herself as time goes on. Yeah.

[00:03:02.760] - Stephen Johnson
So that's the way to be. That's great.

[00:03:06.030] - Annie Gibson
And then for this job, I graduated University and came here and I didn't quite know what to expect at Playwrights Canada Press. I was hired as, like, a customer service employee. It's a staff of two. And the previous customer service person was leaving. And I sort of was in the right place at the right time, handed in my resume. And my predecessor, Angela Rebeiro, was like, 'Great, come on in'. So I did that for a few years, always with the understanding that she was retiring. She sort of said that to me in the opening interview was like, I will be retiring. You will have a new boss within a year. And so our board of directors really struggled to find someone to fill the position as publisher. And they ended up offering it to this man named Christian Horn, who was actually German but had had quite a bit of experience with Canadian theater and Canadian playwrights. And I think for a year to 18 months, they sort of waited for him to be able to get his immigration stuff correct. And the Canadian government just sort of never wrote back to him. Like, his immigration just stalled, so he was never able to come to Canada to accept the job. And by that point, I'd been here for several years, and Angela had the brilliant idea of, 'Well, what about Annie? Annie knows what she's doing'. So that's how I became the publisher.

[00:04:30.150] - Stephen Johnson
And as it turned out, you did know what you were doing.

[00:04:33.440] - Annie Gibson
Right? I think I figured it out pretty well.

[00:04:36.410] - Stephen Johnson
I think you did.

[00:04:38.430] - Annie Gibson
Yeah. I think it helped to have, like, a mom who was in the theater. Of course, there were certain things I knew there were books of plays always around the house. My mother is published by Playwrights Canada Press. However, I'm not allowed to select her work. I have to turn that over to a committee.

[00:04:55.360] - Stephen Johnson
Right. Well, then let's get down to the question at hand. And I know that there are a series of questions and things to think about that you received in advance that everyone in this part of the project receives in advance. And I'm sure you know them well and you thought about it. So maybe I can just ask you to speak to an early - we don't have to stick to one memory. So far, no one has.

[00:05:25.300] - Annie Gibson
I wrote down a litany of them.

[00:05:27.730] - Stephen Johnson
Excellent. Litanies are excellent.

[00:05:29.680] - Annie Gibson
Right. I feel like I have a few really strong formative memories when it comes to me in theater. Right. So my first memory is - and this is the funny part. It's like, you know how your memory of the child works is you remember certain things, but you don't remember everything. So it is my understanding that my parents took us to Shaw to see Peter Pan, but all I remember is there was a little spotlight that was Tinkerbell and the audience would applaud and the spotlight would grow. And so I love that memory. It was very like, 'Oh, my God, there's an actual fairy on stage'. I was not aware that it was a spotlight. I thought it was magic and fairy dust. And like I said, I must have been, I don't know, six, seven, something like that. Because it was before we had moved to Toronto and started seeing things a bit more regularly. And it was just fantastic. And then I would say within a year or two, my mother took me to see Cats and we sat in the front row. She was like, my young child will enjoy this fun romp of magic and music.

And, oh, my God, did I ever like, I fell in love with that musical. And I mean, I've seen it since as an adult. It's a bit cheesy now, but I still love every minute of it. It's again, like it's the spectacle, which is very different than what I see and enjoy in my work. But it just sort of just spoke to me of the magic of theater. And it being different than like a movie. Like, they can do anything in a movie. They can make you believe that what you're looking at on screen is reality. And it's so much more difficult to do that on stage. And your actors and performers have to be finely tuned machines, right, to do some of the moves that they're doing in things like Cast. And I think it brought within me a strong love of theater. And then there was The Phantom of the Opera. That was also my mother was like, 'Well, if Annie liked Cats-'. I think after we moved to Toronto, she took me to see Phantom. And again, we got to sit in the front row and the flames that came up from the stage.

So she told me, my mom that in the show, the chandelier comes from behind the audience and crashes down onto the stage. And I don't remember this, but she tells me I spent the entire first act looking behind me at the chandelier, waiting for it to fall. So, yeah. And it was interesting because I was taken to a lot of big productions when I was a kid. Like, my uncles would take me to Cirque du Soleil every summer because they were down at Ontario Place. And it wasn't until much later that I got to see sort of more dialogue-driven Canadian theater, which is the thing I love now. I'm devastated that I don't get to see it every week like I was. It's not the same online, but so thinking about all this got me thinking. So there were two shows that were sort of formative to my career at Playwrights Canada Press that I saw early on. There was I guess it would have been a remount of Dennis Foon's New Canadian Kid at Young People's Theatre That probably would have been done in the early 2000s because I'm pretty sure I went and saw it before I started this job. And it's theater for young audiences. So I'm sitting in an audience full of children, and I think that was really nice for me. I hadn't seen children's theater since I was a child, and it was just watching that be magical for other people.

[00:09:19.990] - Stephen Johnson
So how old would you have been? Approximately?

[00:09:22.340] - Annie Gibson
Yeah, in the early 2000s, in my very early 20s and maybe like 22s.

[00:09:27.000] - Stephen Johnson
And you just said you did see some children's theater when you were a child.

[00:09:32.070] - Annie Gibson
Yeah.

[00:09:32.870] - Stephen Johnson
Do you remember that?

[00:09:34.600] - Annie Gibson
Not really. I remember being like-. There are pictures of us at the Polka Dot Door live.

[00:09:41.050] - Stephen Johnson
All right. That's very impressive!

[00:09:44.380] - Annie Gibson
I don't remember any of it. And it was funny because we also performed a bit. I never really wanted to be on stage, but my mother enrolled this in, like, tap and ballet classes. And I remember hating those mainly because I had to get up early on a Saturday morning, and I was like all of seven years old, but I'm not a performer. It's not something I've ever found interesting.

[00:10:10.230] - Stephen Johnson
So in school also, you didn't do any kind of stuff. 

[00:10:15.350] - Annie Gibson
No. So, the year after we moved to Toronto, there was, like a scholarship program at our school that would give a kid, like, $500 to attend a day camp of their choosing-. Because I'm forgetting one of my absolute favorite shows of all time, which was, YPT did A Midsummer Night's Dream. And it was one of the most gorgeous things I have ever seen in my entire life because it was sparkly. Oh, it was sparkly. It was like the set and costume design. And if I'm not mistaken, I'm pretty sure Yana McIntosh played Titania and like, oh, it was good. And it was Shakespeare written for kids or that is accessible to kids, so they're playing up extra hard the comedic aspects and what's the character's name with the donkey head?

[00:11:06.590] - Stephen Johnson
Bottom.

[00:11:06.590] - Annie Gibson
Yes. Thank you. It's been too many years, but so I think I would have seen that and then sort of fallen in love with it. So for this scholarship thing that I ended up winning, I did a YPT Behind the Scenes Camp. And, like, the acting camps at YPT were all the rage, right? Like, they had 20 kids in every class or whatever. And in the Behind the Scenes class, there were two. There was me and this other kid, and it was in the shop. The person who was leading the camp, her first name was Andrea, and I will not remember her last name, but she taught us literally how to use heavy machinery, like bandsaws and stuff like that. And she taught us about designing sort of costume stuff and set. So we got to make little maquettes. And I can't remember why I built this, but it was like a rainbow arch.

[00:12:00.170] - Annie Gibson
There are pictures of me with this thing where it was big pieces of wood. And then at the top were these ribbons that were attached to sticks and you could pull them through. Anyway. I don't know. I have no idea what it was for, but I loved it. And one day she got us to build fake bricks. And it's one of my favorite stories of all time, bringing it home and showing my dad and saying, hey, Dad, look what we did in class today and throwing it at him. And he was like [jumped back], because he thought it was a real brick. But it was really interesting for me because that was the part I found a lot more interesting and exciting than what was happening on stage. That's great. As an audience member, I love to watch it, but it was never something I would want to do professionally or even like for fun, like standing up in front of people.

[00:12:53.700] - Stephen Johnson
But you're certainly not alone there. I mean, there is a large contingent of people who love being backstage and in the wings and underneath the stage and above the stage and everywhere else but the stage.

[00:13:07.130] - Annie Gibson
Yeah.

[00:13:07.630] - Stephen Johnson
But they love the theater. I mean, it's a significant part of the theater. That's very interesting that you say that. And that there was a separate area of the YPT. For Techies.

[00:13:23.480] - Annie Gibson
Yeah. 

[00:13:23.980] - Stephen Johnson
Good.

[00:13:24.660] - Annie Gibson
Right. I think Maja Ardal would have been the AD at that point. I have this vague recollection of her name, and then, of course, later grew to know her professionally. But, yeah, I ended up doing that course two years in a row. And the second year there were a few more kids in it. And it was really interesting, too, because I was very independent. Like, I would have been 10 and 11 and my parents would let me ride the subway by myself. We lived at St. Clair and Bathurst, and I got to ride down to Union Station. And I remember being given, like, pocket money so I could go buy lunch at the Rabba Fine Foods.

[00:14:02.750] - Stephen Johnson
Right.

[00:14:04.670] - Annie Gibson
Yeah. It was just really interesting because it wasn't just, 'Okay, you're going to go to day-camp and then come home in the evening'. It was this whole, like, I remember buying my parents, like, anniversary gifts for the first time ever at the store because I'd passed the store on my way to Union Station and back, and I was like, 'Oh, this is nice. They'll enjoy these glasses'. Anyways. And then the other show I wanted to talk about was Anita Majumdar's Fish Eyes, because it would have been the first show that I saw once I got this job in 2005. So I would have been 24, I guess. Yeah. And it was my first time in the Passe Muraille Backspace. And it was part of a development festival. So it wasn't like a full piece yet. And it was called, I think, the Buzz Festival. And what they've done is like different performers or writers or actors would come out and perform a small piece or part of a larger show. Angela, my predecessor, she'd gone to see Joseph Pierre, I think, who we were publishing. And I was like, 'Oh, this Anita Majumdar's piece looks interesting. I'll go see it'.

[00:15:18.180] - Annie Gibson
And it was this miserable rainy day and was like, slushy because it was February. Actually, in that case, it must have been in 2006. Well, anyway, my timeline gets a little funny.

[00:15:31.430] - Stephen Johnson
It's just so for us all.

[00:15:34.190] - Annie Gibson
Because I started this job in June of 2005. So it was winter. It would have been anyways-. She performed. But I remember so vividly there was no one else in the theater. There were like, maybe two or three other patrons because it's a development festival. It's the middle of winter. I'm sure it was like a Tuesday night, which now is my favorite night of the week to go see plays. I love going to see plays when other people aren't there, partially because I don't really like sitting beside people, which when I went in to see this show. So you've been in the Passe Muraille Backspace, right? When it's a full house, they cram in against those benches. And then if anyone moves on the bench, everybody rocks back and forth. But I had yet to experience this because there was just such a small crowd on the night I went. I got an entire bench to myself, and I was able to sort of spread out my wet coat. 

[00:16:28.950] - Annie Gibson
I felt so cozy watching these performers. And it was interesting thinking about this right now because Fish Eyes is a bit of a spectacle, right. Like, there's a lot of dance included in it, which you don't really see in sort of your straight up, dialogue-driven play. And so there was Anita dancing away, and I was enthralled. I was like, 'Oh, my God'. And I don't know how many years later it must have been almost ten years later, we finally published the play. Like, she'd written, like, multiple other sort of followup plays that we were able to put all together. And I find it very formative in my career. Sort of like, this is the kind of stuff that I want to put on the page.  

[00:17:12.970] - Stephen Johnson
And why was it the kind of stuff? It was the kind of stuff because it included dance as well as narrative as well as because it had a lot in it. 

[00:17:22.990] - Annie Gibson
Yes. And I think it was a story about a young woman who, like, as a young woman, I hadn't seen very many stories like that on stage, right. And for me, too, as a white person, the show is about a young Indian girl in BC who is like, she's what's the word? Professional dancer as part of a student group outside of school. And it colors her experiences, right. Like, she's in training with a teacher who is offering her certain cultural-. I can't think of the word. It's sort of like, yeah, I feel like the teacher is saying, these are the standards by which our culture lives. And yet this girl is being raised in sort of semi-suburban BC, going, 'Well, this is the culture I'm a part of, in my high school there'. I just thought it was this really elegant way of looking at somebody trying to figure out their place in the world. And certainly I hadn't seen anything like that about like a young Indian woman, right. A lot of the stuff is written for young white women. So certainly that was reflected a lot of the time. But I love learning about other people and the experiences they go through. 

[00:18:43.720] - Annie Gibson
And now I get to do that constantly through plays. Yeah, that is kind of what I'm saying. It's like now as a publisher, I'm often choosing things where I'm like, this showcases someone else's experience. It doesn't have to all be my experience, right. I'd be so bored just reading about the things I know about all the time.

[00:19:04.490] - Stephen Johnson
Yes, of course, if I'm going back to your early experience in the theater, it was always that way. It's not like you started off seeing shows about your own experience. I mean, you were seeing Cats.

[00:19:18.910] - Annie Gibson
Yes.

[00:19:19.280] - Stephen Johnson
And you were seeing Phantom, which couldn't have been farther away from your own life experience. Not exactly slice of life naturalism you were growing up on.

[00:19:28.800] - Annie Gibson
But I could always imagine myself as Christine in The Phantom. Right here's, this love story where this young woman is swept up in the moment. She's this young ingenue. So I feel like I think I related more to that early on, right. And it felt more like a possible experience. I say possible and kind of air quotes there because there's no person with a giant scarring on his face hanging out under my office building. But I think there's a thing to that, right. Where it was like this young white woman who I could see myself as.

[00:20:07.070] - Stephen Johnson
Right.

[00:20:07.900] - Annie Gibson
Yeah. Where, I think it's a bit different, whereas if they'd cast a young black woman, maybe I wouldn't have identified with her as much, right. I still would have enjoyed the story, but I wouldn't have seen myself there to the same extent, although many other people would have, right. So anyway, I'm all for a multitude of experiences being displayed. 

[00:20:29.040] - Stephen Johnson
If I could just pick up on a couple of things that you've mentioned, you mentioned because certain things resonate with someone like me. The fact that you enjoyed attending Fish Eyes in a theater where there was just basically you. 

[00:20:45.650] - Annie Gibson
Yeah, I remember there were a few other people, but like, they were behind me. I couldn't even see them. I felt like it was a performance for one. 

[00:20:53.750] - Stephen Johnson
And that you enjoyed that. And there's this sense that you liked being in a place where you were not the only audience member, but that you could be alone with that theatrical experience. So different from your early experience when you're in a large theater jammed with people. That must have been a pretty radical departure for you to be in a space alone or nearly alone. And also, you know, not being jammed in with people. It's a very different experience, like a private audience. That's just something that I latch on to because of everything you've been telling me. Also, I have to ask-. You're quite right, when we're very young, our experiences, our memories are so selective.

[00:21:44.790] - Annie Gibson
Yeah. 

[00:21:45.330] - Stephen Johnson
So incredibly selective. I mean, how many people, young people remember the plot of the thing they go to see, really? But I do want to ask if you remember the audience around you. For example, you attended Phantom of the Opera, and you knew enough context before going in to keep looking around. 

[00:22:07.490] - Annie Gibson
Yes.

[00:22:08.420] - Stephen Johnson
So you were always kind of a backstage person. You're always, like, technically oriented. You were saying, 'Okay, when's that coming down? How's that going to work', even when you're young. Now, I realize I'm terribly reading into your memory, but I think it signifies that you are turning around and looking at this thing and waiting and anticipating. I wonder if there was a sense in your early memory of what was happening backstage of what was happening around you. The artificiality of it. 

[00:22:47.670] - Annie Gibson
Yeah. And I think part of that is my mother trying to give me the context. I think Phantom is not meant for very young children, right. And there's going to be pyrotechnics, there's going to be maybe some scary bits. So I think she sort of went out of her way a bit to try and prepare me for the parts that might be startling or scary, but in doing so just made me super interested about how does this all work. Because there's this other part in Phantom where in the-. So, ok, I've since seen it like four times because, well, I really love this show. But there's this part where the stage has become like the catacombs under the opera house, and the Phantom is like piloting a boat through the sewers, I guess. And how does this work? Yeah, I can't really remember the exact staging of it, but there's one point where basically, like, a hole opens up in the floor and the Phantom jumps through it in this fog and mist. 

[00:23:45.890] - Annie Gibson
And I can't remember if Christine or if it's the guys who are chasing them, they're not sure how to go down because they're like, we can't jump into this hole. We can't see. And I mean, that's the plot. But I think even as a kid, I was like, 'Oh, I'm sorry, how did this magic happen? How did he get down there?' And instead of my mother just being like, 'Oh, well, that's the magic of the stage'. She would say, 'Well, there's a panel on the floor that lifts up'. And you don't get to see it from your vantage point in the audience, especially as someone who would have been 4ft high at the time. I think there was an element of explaining away the unknown. But to me, it's sort of like figuring out a magic trick because I just want to know the science behind it. 

[00:24:33.410] - Stephen Johnson
Sure. And that's something that you're educated in if your mother is explaining that to you prior to going or setting you up for it, but also perhaps during-. That feeds into an interest. Well, it feeds into your interest in backstage work and technical work. Because you're interested in how the magic happens, not just that it happens, but how it happens, which is very interesting. Not everybody watches the theater that way. A lot of people don't want to know how the magic happens. 

[00:25:08.150] - Annie Gibson
Yeah. Well, I spend my time often picking apart a costume or something. Like if I see something with a really spectacular costume, I'll be like, 'Oh, wow. How did they do it?' Oh, God. There was a show at YPT that we subsequently published, called The Forbidden Phoenix, and there was this Queen figure who they put like a two-story dress under her. And I still am like I mean, obviously she was on some sort of, like, wheelie device with some fabric over her, but I remember being-. I was distracted by it as an audience member because I'm like, 'Ooh, what's happening here?' 

[00:25:46.850] - Stephen Johnson
I also want to ask you about the place, the specific place, because you were quite clear in those two or three early memories about where you were sitting and you were in the front row. I mean, the front row, you're a couple of feet tall and you're in the front row. I recall being in the front row for shows when I've been an adult and not really being quite sure what's happening over the lip of the stage. Do you have a sense that you were like, do you have an image in your mind of being sort of peering over the stage and seeing everybody? And you'd be very close to them. 

[00:26:27.420] - Annie Gibson
Yes.

[00:26:28.320] - Stephen Johnson
Even in a large space and a big spectacle, you'd be very close.

[00:26:32.200] - Annie Gibson
Yeah. And it's interesting because now I don't like sitting at the front at all. I will always move to the back of the stage, or the back of the auditorium. That has to do with the size of theater. I see mainly now, right. Yeah. The biggest space I'm in is probably the main space at Buddies, where the back audience there, the back row of the theater is still quite close. But yeah, it's funny because I remember not so much trying to peer over the stage. I think there was enough happening that I was good. I could see. It's also possible I had a booster seat. I don't remember that for a fact. But I know places like what's going to call the Pantages, whatever the one on Yonge Street is now they have that kind of stuff. So I think there's a strong possibility I had one of those to help with the height problem.

[00:27:21.710] - Stephen Johnson
And do you have a memory - and you haven't indicated that you have a memory of this, but I'm going to ask it anyway - of preparing to go to these large shows, of arriving, of being there, of dressing. Because it would have been-. Because that's what you would have done.

[00:27:45.680] - Annie Gibson
Yeah, I think we must have. Like, if my mom was taking me to a show, however, there was this definite shift, especially after we moved to Toronto and she got more into this theater community where she didn't feel as compelled to dress up. I go in whatever work clothes I'm going to my sort of independent theater. But even now, like, I saw Phantom a few years ago when it came back and I was like, 'I'm going out for, like, a big night of theater, I'm going to dress up'. But I don't really remember that the same from my early memories.

[00:28:25.690] - Stephen Johnson
Well, you wouldn't have been the responsible party and making certain [crosstalk 00:28:30]. Yeah. May I ask, because there's this shift, great shift in the performances that you attended. You started off your earliest memories are attending these very large and spectacular performances. And at a certain point in your life, as you've indicated, you started attending much smaller ones, like Fish Eyes.

[00:28:57.850] - Annie Gibson
Yeah.

[00:28:59.670] - Stephen Johnson
Was that a sudden change in the timeline of your life? Was there an evolution or did theater sort of stop for a while and then suddenly you're going to the theater and you're going to the Backstage at TPM.

[00:29:21.330] - Annie Gibson
I think a lot of it had to do with what my parents took me, too, right. Like, when I was a kid growing up, they love to spend, like, a weekend in Stratford every year or what have you. So they would take us to these things in Stratford, like when I was a kid or sorry, when I was a teenager, our school did an annual trip to Stratford every year in the fall. I think the first year when it was like Romeo and Juliet. So the entire 10th grade took off to Stratford. But then it just became like, whoever wants to go and they were usually going to see a Shakespeare show. But it was something my parents were willing to pay for because it wasn't cheap between the ticket and bus transportation or whatever. So there was that. And then when I was in university, I didn't see anything. I don't remember doing that. And it was funny. I remember this breath of fresh air when I finished university because I could go back to reading books for pleasure. I didn't have to read school books anymore. I remember picking up a novel that had like I mean, I'm sure it was great, but it wasn't like a classic work of English literature that I was studying or like the 400-page tome on whatever historical concept I was looking at.

[00:30:36.360] - Annie Gibson
I just remember going like, 'Oh', and it was so lovely. By that time, I was a little more independent. I wasn't living with my parents, so they're not being like, let's go entertain the kids this weekend. So they weren't offering to take me to things. And it didn't cross my mind to go on my own, right. Other than my mom, I had no entry into the theater community. She was quite connected at Factory, so she would have flyers and stuff around the house when I'd come home to visit. But I think it always just seemed like, 'Oh, well, that's her work'. And it wasn't something that I was super-. I wasn't going to go do it on my own. But now that I'm thinking about it, I'm positive she's the one who took me to see New Canadian Kid. It would have been sort of end of my university. And I think she will have seen it and gone like, 'This is like the greatest show, this is so fun. Everybody's got to see it'. And took me to go see it and like, oh, I adored it. It sits in my mind very fully.

[00:31:45.030] - Annie Gibson
Although it's funny, I hadn't thought about it in years and was thinking about it a couple of years ago. And I was like, 'Oh, I think now I know one of the actors who was in that show'. So I mentioned it to him and he was like, 'Oh, no, that wasn't me'. And I was like, 'Oh, damn'. Of course, my ten-year-old memory is the memory from ten years ago. Again, not what it was, but yeah, I think it's just I don't know, especially when you move out on your own and there's things that seem to maybe be your parents' interest that you enjoyed, too. But I don't know. I wanted to just hang out with my friends, I guess, and watch TV or whatever. Yeah. But it didn't surprise me when this job came up and it was theater oriented. I was like, 'Oh, yeah, this is a world I'm comfortable in. This is a world I feel I know not relatively well at the time, but I don't feel there are any barriers, certainly for me to getting more into theater'. It helps now that the Press pays for my tickets, too. Not The Phantom of the Opera, of course, but to the independent theatre.

[00:32:53.970] - Stephen Johnson
I also want to go-. I mean, you mentioned your uncles took you to Cirque du Soleil, apparently always large spectacles, but let's say alternative forms of performance, not always stand alone, scripted plays, musicals, absolutely. But there's still narrative works, but there are other-. And although, of course, there's an argument that Cirque du Soleil is narrative as well. And I know some of them are and some of them aren't. But the idea of alternative forms of performance, whether they're spectacle or not, including, for that matter, television. Is there a context surrounding your attendance at these large musicals and then later on smaller shows that in any way informs your own cultural interest or your cultural understanding of what performance is?

[00:33:54.500] - Annie Gibson
Well, as you were talking, I was just thinking about all these parallels. So when I was in early high school, one of my main interests was going to see bands in concert. And often that started with the big bands that I knew. And by the time I was in later high school, I was much more into independent music. So was going to very small clubs to go see very small bands. It's just interesting because often yeah, the entry point is the big thing, that everybody knows, that gets all the attention. But I remember those big concerts feeling overwhelming, like you had to stand the whole time. And as a continually short person, you can't see over the seven-foot guys in front of you. It was a lot easier to go to, at the Rivoli, where we on several occasions convinced the bands to arrange the audience by height. But that's the beauty of getting to know the performer, right. Who is sort of like, 'Oh, yeah, why can't we arrange the audience by height? Let the five-foot girls come in front'.

[00:35:13.830] - Stephen Johnson
That's very interesting. That's very interesting to me that this is another kind of performance that you attended where you actually had some input, you actually had some input into how the performance took place, how the audience was arranged, and you got to know people very different from your theatrical experience, from the standalone theatrical experience.

[00:35:41.490] - Annie Gibson
Yeah.

[00:35:42.770] - Stephen Johnson
I'm glad I asked that question, Annie. Not that I'm going to pursue it any further, but that's a very interesting sidelight to it, like a context to it, because you went to see bands. And I'm sure many of the other people I'll talk with spent their time seeing musical performances, dance performances, other kinds of performances. And it's interesting to me that people do separate these things out.

[00:36:14.880] - Annie Gibson
Yeah. And it's funny because I think of music performance less as performance, I guess, and more of music. But it's not, right. Musicians get up on stage and perform and like some musicians are, say, playing an instrument. So they have almost like a technical role. Whereas other musicians, like-. I went and saw Taylor Swift a few years ago, and she sang mostly I think she might have played guitar on a few songs, but I mean, that was one of the most spectacular concerts I've ever been to. They put her on like a crane and then lifted her over the stage so everybody could see her. And it was brilliant. It was beautiful. I was like, 'Wow'.

[00:37:03.270] - Stephen Johnson
I mean, does Phantom compare really with Taylor Swift. Which is more spectacular?

[00:37:09.100] - Annie Gibson
Phantom. Because that's one of those things, right. Every time I've seen it, I've had relatively good seats to see it. And so I've been up close to see a lot of those technical things. And so a year or two ago, just before things shut down with Covid, I got a Mirvish subscription because I really wanted to see Hamilton. But there's a difference between a one off ticket and entire subscription. So I bought the cheapest subscription and had balcony seats for most things. And I found myself very removed from the performances I saw. Like, the only one I connected with was Hamilton. And I think that's because I knew the whole thing inside and out. Everything else I saw, I was sort of like, 'What am I watching?' And I think part of that now is I am so used to being a lot closer to the stage. Like, everything I see at Factory and whatnot - even in the back row, I'm still only like 30ft from the stage.

[00:38:09.810] - Stephen Johnson
And how interesting that that's the way you started going to the theater, too, those first few formative experiences, no matter how large the show was, how spectacular, how large the theater was, your memory is being a few feet away from all these people because you were in the front row.

[00:38:27.290] - Annie Gibson
Yeah.

[00:38:28.000] - Stephen Johnson
And that's very fortunate for you. But it also forms a, I think, it forms an attitude toward the theater. Of course, you remember the show differently if you're at the back than if you're at the front.

[00:38:42.640] - Annie Gibson
Yeah. I remember seeing Chicago, maybe, in the back row with my mom, and she brought opera glasses. I'd seen the movie, I knew lots of the songs, and I still felt so removed from it, even like a big show like that, right.

[00:39:05.210] - Stephen Johnson
Yeah. I really appreciate this conversation. Unless there's something else that you suddenly remember that you have to talk about-.

[00:39:14.080] - Annie Gibson
Well, I think a lot now about the last show I saw before things shut down. Especially in March when we were coming up on the one year anniversary. I was thinking a lot about the last time I did everything. The last restaurant I went to, the last time I saw my dad, and the last show I saw was The Negroes Are Congregating by Natasha Adiyana Morris. And it was this really excellent show, and I'm not clear if it got good turnout or not. I would say the performance I was at, there were a good number of people there, but I don't think it was sold out. And six months later, the stuff that was being talked about in that play was front and center for a lot of people, right. Like, it was just talking about the Black experience in Canada. But if I'd known that was the last show I was going to see, I would have stayed much longer. I miss now being in an audience of people. Somebody sent me an archive video to watch instead of reading their script, and it was filmed in the before times there are people in the audience and listening to the other members of the audience laugh-. It was great. I started crying because I was like, 'Oh, other people and this communal experience'. So I'm just very much looking forward to getting back to that and not Theater on Zoom, where I feel like now I am the only audience member, at least in my home, and I hate it. I hate it so much. I don't want to be near other people, but I want them to be in the same space as me. I have very defined rules for this, apparently.

[00:41:01.910] - Stephen Johnson
Well, that's an excellent place to end. I'm going to thank you very much for doing this.

A Conversation with Mark Turner

On Friday, 28 May 2021, at 11:30am EDT, Stephen Johnson talked with Mark Turner about his first experiences with Performance--his 'First Gatherings.' That conversation is included below, in full. You can find out more about his life, scholarship and performance practice here.

Mark was born and raised in St. John's, Newfoundland and Labrador, a city with a rich history of performance of all kinds. His earliest and most vivid memories, however, are of excursions to the Arts and Culture Centre, a purpose-built venue at the edge of the Memorial University campus. He remembers the travel required to reach that space, the entrance into it through small, constrained areas leading into a large, open venue--and he remembers gazing with wonder at the house lights. He was taken to this venue to see travelling children's performers--Sharon, Lois and Bram, and Mr. Dress-Up--and he was taken to see the Newfoundland Symphony Orchestra. As he understands his own experience of performance early in his life, he believes that this space was so memorable to him because it was unique. This was the venue that was located outside of everyday space, that had no other function but performance, that focused on performances from elsewhere--a space signified something like 'success.' All other spaces he remembers were multi-purpose--schools, churches--and they were easily shared by members of the community. In practice, all these other spaces included audiences waiting to mount the stage to perform, and performers waiting to enter the audience to witness others performing. This was 'the norm,' and the Arts and Culture Centre was the exception. This was also true of Mark's experience as a performer. He was trained in the (very inclusive) Suzuki Method in piano and violin from an early age, and from the age of tten, in Royal Conservatory curriculum for trumpet. He has little memory of seeing or being involved in theatrical productions early in his life until, later in high school, he became involved in the Canadian Improv Games, at about the same time he took up the electric guitar as his instrument of choice. He ties these two events together, as a discovery of popular performance, and of local culture. He went on to study music, to form the band King Nancy, to graduate school for performance and film studies, and then to extensive work with the Inuit of Nunatsiavut (Northern Labrador), and their music traditions. Mark's narrative speaks to the influence of the space on the way we first experience performance, on the complex relationship between local and imported culture, and on the distinctions taught to us by the places we witness performance. 

A full transcript will be posted later.

A Conversation with Maria Meindl

On Monday, 17 May 2021, at 11am EDT, Stephen Johnson talked with Maria Meindl about her first experiences with Performance--her 'First Gatherings.' That conversation is included below, in full. You can find out more about her life, scholarship and performance practice here: https://gatheringspartnership.com/contributors 

Maria was raised in Toronto, in a family of artists, and with a mother who worked in live television. She grew up attending performance of all kinds, but in particular theatrical performance. Her earliest memories of performance: of an actor in a wolf costume surprising her by suddenly appearing in the aisle beside her, at a small children's theatre; of the extraordinary turntable set for the touring production of Oliver! at the O'Keefe Centre; of a live television performance of the children's show Razzle Dazzle, and in particular waving banners with rest of the audience members and shouting the title of the show. She remembers the emotion evoked by performance, and in particular by costume and set and prop. Overall, as you watch this interview, I believe you'll have a sense of the culture of the backstage, available to someone with a more-than-usual access: the backstage of live television for someone with a mother who worked there, and backstage after seeing Oliver!, to meet someone who could turn on the great revolving stage. As Maria talked about growing up in Toronto, attending theatre of all kinds, I personally thought about the culture of theatre-going, and how much of it is learned behaviour. Where do we learn to find free or reduced-price tickets, to volunteer to usher or work in the office in order to attend the theatre, to go to see everything possible, to go repeatedly to see the same production, and to go alone. What we see is important, of course, but how we come to see is an important question. Finally, who teaches us to attend the theatre? Does someone do this 'on purpose'? 

A full transcript will be posted later.

A Conversation with Maria Meindl

A Conversation with Sasha Kovacs

On Friday, 21 May 2021, at 1pm EDT, Stephen Johnson talked with Sasha Kovacs about her first experiences with Performance--her 'First Gatherings.' That conversation is included below, in full. You can find out more about her life, scholarship and performance practice here.

Sasha was born and raised in downtown Toronto, and all of her early experiences of the theatre were in the 'doing.' Her Kindergarten class created a production of Phantom of the Opera--a statement that should raise interest! From there she found her way into dance classes for children at Opera Atelier, then a small drama school on Yonge Street, all the while becoming involved in theatre in school, at Deer Park Senior Public school and North Toronto High School. Sasha was raised in a home where involvement in sports was very important, and she was a competitive swimmer and golfer, all while she was involved in theatre--that other kind of performance. I find several things striking about this narrative: the serendipity of involvement in theatre, a kindergarten class leading to dance class leading to acting class leading to school theatre; the number of brushes with theatrical culture through classmates who were involved in professional performance; and the singular importance of teachers--Sasha could name every one of her influences, from the beginning. There was no particular path clearly visible for involvement in theatre--it partly appears by chance, and perhaps the path is partly cleared by our strong attraction to the form. As for Sasha's attendance at the theatre, as an audience member, in her case this came later, and she is not entirely clear how it came about. Her earliest recollections of class trips are vague, unclear as to what show she saw, her memories more about the trip and the town (Stratford, Niagara-on-the-Lake) than the performance. But at some point in her teenage years, she became a very active audience member, somehow--from recommendations by friends and teachers, from pouring over the pages of thee free newspapers Eye and Now as a personal ritual. And as I have found in other conversations, it was one form of public event that could be acceptably engaged in alone, purchasing the tickets, making the trip through town, and sitting in a crowded space in the dark--at Tarragon Theatre, Factory Theatre, Theatre Smith-Gilmour (a life-changing experience of their Chekhov Shorts), the early Soulpepper, and the Fringe Festivals, all of these affordable, welcoming. 

When the time came to attend a university, theatre won out, and she attended Queen's University. 

A full transcript will be posted later.

A Conversation with Sasha Kovacs

TRANSCRIPT

GATHERINGS: ARCHIVAL AND ORAL HISTORIES OF PERFORMANCE

First Gatherings Project; Interview with Sasha Kovacs by Stephen Johnson

On 21 May 2021. See website recording and introduction

Full consent given by both parties for posting.

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[00:00:06.110] - Sasha

Hello.

[00:00:07.190] - Stephen

Hello, Sasha.

[00:00:08.150] - Sasha

Thank you very much for agreeing to do this interview. I wonder if we could just begin with you giving just a little bit of intro about yourself, describing yourself, your training, your theatre going, early theatre going, where you grew up in particular, just in a few words, really.

[00:00:27.770] - Stephen

Okay. My name is Sasha. I grew up in Toronto, born and raised, different areas of Toronto, but grew up in an apartment at Yonge and Bloor. And my early theatre training--maybe we'll get to this in more detail. My early theatre training probably started when I was about twelve or 13. I went to this little theatre school called the Drama Workshop. It wasn't YPT, but it was on Yonge Street near Summerhill. And then from there, I just did a lot of theatre in school and got very interested in acting.

[00:01:18.110] - Sasha

When I was in high school, I did some television and this truly fueled my love for acting and then I decided to do a theatre degree at Queens University, which wasn't a conservatory. It was a University degree. And then from there, I got really interested in devised theatre at the end of my work at Queen’s and then worked as a professional actor in Toronto, generally got a lot of work in film and television so that I could pay to do all the weird devised performance work that really interested me in the theatre.

[00:01:55.670] - Sasha

And then now I'm a professor at the University of Victoria across the country where I teach theatre and theatre history because Steven Johnson made me a theatre historian. That's you.

[00:02:09.650] - Stephen

Right. Well, I'm not sure I'm solely culpable.

[00:02:16.130] - Sasha

It was an exercise and conversion to become an academic.

[00:02:20.510] - Stephen

That's exactly what I wanted to hear. Not the last part, necessarily. But I wanted to hear that kind of introduction, because whatever you talk about now, it can be placed into that kind of context.

[00:02:36.110] - Stephen

I really appreciate you doing this. I sent you a list of questions or some things to think about. As you were thinking about your early experience, your first gatherings, singular or plural, is really up to you. And I'm sure you have thought about that. And maybe I'll allow you to just begin to talk about that first experience in the theatre. If there was one that was particularly resonant and then start from there.

[00:03:07.010] - Sasha

Yeah. First experiences in a theatre. It's an interesting question because it made me think when you asked the question, what theatre? What is the first experience in a theatre? Both my parents had no relationship to theatre.

[00:03:24.770] - Stephen

Zero.

[00:03:26.270] - Sasha

My dad was an electrician. My mom was like a construction worker. She was the first female construction worker in Ontario. Actually.

[00:03:36.110] - Stephen

Fantastic.

[00:03:37.010] - Sasha

Yeah. So no background relationship to interest in theatre. And then I guess when I was in kindergarten. So my relationship to theatre, I got started in school, and I don't know if this is the kind of answer you want to this question because maybe you're looking for a show.

[00:04:01.470] - Stephen

No, I'm not looking for a show.

[00:04:04.650] - Sasha

Okay.

[00:04:05.970] - Stephen

If that's the experience for some people, it is one particular theatrical production, but not for everyone.

[00:04:12.510] - Sasha

Yeah. For me, it wasn't like theatre-going necessarily that got me hooked. It was actually theatre making from a really young age, and it was in school. So when I was in kindergarten, we did a production of Phantom with Mrs. Bradley, who was my kindergarten teacher, and Mrs. Cook, who we affectionately called Cookie. And probably the reason I remember these people is because of working on this show. And, yeah, they had us do this production. By production I mean, what does that even mean? It was on a little wooden raised stage in the back of the classroom that they had constructed with random costume pieces that were brought in.

[00:05:01.810] - Sasha

And I guess it was the time at which Phantom was, like the show to go to in Toronto.

[00:05:08.470] - Stephen

So what year? Approximately.

[00:05:10.570] - Sasha

I was born in 85. So this would have been I was probably five years old. So it would have been 1990. I was four or five years old.

[00:05:20.470] - Sasha

And so we did this really weird production of Phantom of the Opera with a bunch of four and five year olds, which all I remember about it was wanting to be Christine. And I don't think I was cast as Christine, which is pretty well. My theatre history is not being cast as the things I want to be cast as. So that was a good introduction to theatre. So yeah, Mrs. Bradley, Phantom with four and five year olds. And like, I remember the mask.

[00:05:54.010] - Stephen

So there was a mask. There was enough of a production design that there was a mask. And did the mask look like the mask? Do you remember it?

[00:06:05.770] - Sasha

[ comment: ] Yes. And I remember there was a mother. So I think her name was Anne [Restay] [Note: the spelling of this name has not been confirmed], and she had been working with Opera Atelier. Opera Atelier was just starting, I think. They had a kids class that they ran at a Church on Bloor Street. Just passed Bloor. And I guess it would have been Bloor. You know that Church by Rosedale Heights?

[00:06:39.070] - Stephen

Yes.

[00:06:39.550] - Sasha

The Church just before Rosedale Heights on Bloor Street? Yes. So they did a class there. And Anne [Restay], I did all the costumes for Opera Atelier, and her kids were in our primary school. I think if I remember correctly, she worked on some of those costumes for that show as a mom, not as a professional costume designer. That was really fun.

[00:07:04.810] - Stephen

It was. So, just to get this straight. You were all singing the roles?

[00:07:12.730] - Sasha

Yeah. I think we didn't do the through composed musical. I think we likely spoke certain lines, but I remember we did engage in, like, song. We had songs if I'm remembering this correctly, but it was a seriously truncated version. I'm sure we got through one scene, and then someone had to go pee and we all took a ten minute break. I'm pretty sure that's how it all panned out.

[00:07:45.310] - Stephen

And was this done in front of the parents?

[00:07:47.350] - Sasha

Yes, it was done in front of all the parents. And it wasn't done in the auditorium. It wasn't done in the school auditorium. It was in the classroom. In the classroom, at the back of the classroom. You would enter through the back door and we had a backstage. They had, like, constructed the backstage that we'd enter and exit from. I remember being very excited by the idea of being backstage and changing a costume backstage. That was something I hadn't done before, I think as a kid.

[00:08:20.230] - Sasha

So all of that was very cool. So that's probably my earliest memory. Is as a four year old.

[00:08:30.190] - Stephen

That's a pretty amazing thing to do in kindergarten. I have to say.

[00:08:35.170] - Sasha

It was pretty cool.

[00:08:36.730] - Stephen

Yeah. And probably you did it in part because of the people who were students in that class and the parents who were the parents for that class. That's very interesting.

[00:08:51.910] - Sasha

Yeah. And it must have had something to do with that whole Phantom-mania. Everyone was seeing Phantom. I remember that being a big deal. I remember seeing Phantom, but I don't remember when. I remember the chandelier.

[00:09:04.210] - Stephen

But it wasn't then.

[00:09:06.010] - Sasha

No, it was later. Must have been later.

[00:09:09.130] - Stephen

Yeah. So did you have a sense, do you remember whether you were even aware of Phantom?

[00:09:17.710] - Sasha

No. I don't think I was even aware.

[00:09:21.790] - Stephen

And I know I'm reading into this, but did you have a real sense of the plot of this thing?

[00:09:29.110] - Sasha

No. Nothing. I had a sense of some music. I had a sense of the costumes. That was what I probably cared about most.

[00:09:40.810] - Stephen

Okay. So you were in a costume.

[00:09:44.470] - Sasha

We were in costumes. Big dresses.

[00:09:48.250] - Sasha

Yellow. I think I remember yellow dress. Great yellow dress, puffy things.

[00:09:56.350] - Stephen

Yeah.

[00:09:57.550] - Sasha

All the stuff. I guess little girls like to some little girls like to be in, especially when you grow up with a tomboy mother who doesn't let you wear dresses. It's really fun when you get to go wear a big dress.

[00:10:10.390] - Stephen

And there were boys in the class.

[00:10:12.430] - Sasha

There were boys in the class, boys in the production. We all did it. I think if I remember correctly, we just switched roles. I don't think anyone really knew that it was, but it was like role switching and doubling. All that kind of stuff was happening. And I remember it being very short and like, I had to go on and say, my one line. And then I'm sure there was another person who came on and did another line. So it was probably likely certainly horrible. But as I was reflecting on that, I was like, yeah, what's the first moment?

[00:10:51.430] - Sasha

And I guess that is of theatre. And then because of that, I ended up doing ballet classes with Opera Atelier. They did a ballet class in that church on Bloor Street because of the connection to that mom.

[00:11:10.870] - Stephen

Okay.

[00:11:11.530] - Sasha

Who was the designer for Atelier, what was her name? Who was the principal dancer? I forgot them. They're a couple.

[00:11:23.990] - Stephen

Well, that can be filled in.

[00:11:26.090] - Sasha

She had a long neck. That's what I remember. She had a really long neck, and we did shows. I mean, we did recitals, I guess. [Note: The instructors name was Jeannette Lajeunesse Zingg, co-founder of Opera Atelier.]

[00:11:36.470] - Stephen

So you took a ballet. So based not based on your performance.

[00:11:41.390] - Sasha

Connection to that experience

[00:11:45.650] - Stephen

You started taking ballet classes, not because your parents moved you to do that, or, it was that you decided you wanted to do it because you had been exposed to it at this production. So that production has a lot.

[00:11:59.270] - Sasha

Yes.

[00:11:59.870] - Stephen

It had a big influence. So you took ballet classes and you had and how long did you take ballet classes with Opera Atelier?

[00:12:07.370] - Sasha

I probably took them for two or three years. And then I had a really bad knee since I was a kid. I had a weird knee. So dance wasn't for me. I started to do theatre. I'm trying to think of when my mom, we were walking down Bloor Street or down Yonge Street one day, up Yonge Street towards St. Clair, and we stumbled upon this place called the Drama Workshop, which was above what was then a Fabricland. It was a Fabricland just past that bridge that Summerhill Bridge with the old LCBO.

[00:12:51.950] - Sasha

And upstairs there was a little drama school that had three rooms. I remember it so clear. You went up the staircase, you turned left, there's a little waiting room. And then there were three rooms that we would just do acting classes in. And that was probably like grade, maybe grade six or seven. I started doing that.

[00:13:21.870] - Stephen

And how often did you go to the school?

[00:13:25.290] - Sasha

Once a week? Once or twice a week? I may have started once a week and then at night. And then I may have done more than that into - it must have been grade seven, eight, because I think it was actually, because I had a friend who

[00:13:43.950] - Sasha

Yeah, It's so funny how you date these things. I had a friend in that class who actually died of meningitis. And I think it was in grade seven. So it must have been grade 5 6 7 8, probably, before high school. And those classes, they made me fall in love with theatre. There was a woman, Mary Francis Moore, who's now, I think, the artistic director of theatre Aquarius, or one of those theatres. She was teaching there when she was really young. She was probably in her 20s or something. She was teaching there with Annabelle.

[00:14:25.230] - Sasha

I think her name is Annabelle Fitsimmons and Alison something. They did a musical called BitterGirl. So they were doing fringe shows. And I think were just trying to hustle up some ways to make money while they were doing their shows. So they were teaching kids classes.

[00:14:47.410] - Stephen

And what were those classes like?

[00:14:53.270] - Sasha

They would start probably at, like, seven or 06:00. They would go to, like, nine to maybe 2 hours, maybe three hour classes. I know, because I would go with my mom after to some restaurant and get cake. And, yeah, they were, like, improv. We did a lot of improv. We did games, lots of theatre games. We would create lots of image theatre. At the end. We'd usually do some sort of public presentation- sometimes it would be monologue. Sometimes it would be just short pieces. They did a musical theatre class.

[00:15:41.290] - Sasha

And so we did You're a good man, Charlie Brown. But like, by "we did" - it was in a room. There was no production. There were no lights. We did. Oh, gosh. What's the show with the big plant that talks and the dentist?

[00:16:15.210] - Sasha

[singing: I'll be your dentist, fitting braces] That one.

[00:16:16.950] - Stephen

It's all going to come back to us in the middle of this interview.

[00:16:21.630] - Sasha

Yes, it'll come

[00:16:22.590] - Stephen

recorded interview.

[00:16:24.690] - Sasha

Yeah.

[00:16:26.310] - Stephen

I have the movie downstairs. Jack Nicholson played the dentist.

[00:16:30.030] - Sasha

That's it.

[00:16:30.630] - Stephen

Right.

[00:16:33.090] - Sasha

I keep wanting to say Rocky Horror Picture Show.

[00:16:35.970] - Stephen

Except it isn't that at all.

[00:16:37.410] - Sasha

It's not that at all. Anyway. So that place really, yeah. That place, the drama workshop. I don't know how long it lasted. It closed at some point.

[00:16:51.270] - Stephen

So there were kind of recitals for the parents at the end of a term.

[00:16:59.830] - Sasha

Yeah.

[00:16:59.830] - Stephen

And did that recital include scenes of anything?

[00:17:04.270] - Sasha

Scenes? There were sometimes scenes. I'm trying to think of what scenes we performed.

[00:17:10.210] - Stephen

Little Shop of Horrors, by the way.

[00:17:11.350] - Sasha

By the way, little Shop of Horrors. That's it.

[00:17:15.490] - Stephen

Let's not sing the title song.

[00:17:18.370] - Sasha

Yeah.

[00:17:20.050] - Stephen

For now. So you did scenes from plays, from musicals.

[00:17:31.330] - Sasha

Musicals, there was a musical theatre class. So we did just scenes for musicals for that class. And then for the other class, I think it was usually like if I'm remembering things, it was often devised by the group through games. And Annabelle taught that class. And Mary Francis Moore taught that class. It was mostly scenes that we generate.

[00:17:57.010] - Stephen

Right.

[00:17:57.730] - Sasha

So maybe that's where my interest in devised theatre actually started because we would be making a lot of stuff. Sure. In those classes. Yeah. And I mean, YPT like, I don't know why my parents didn't put me in YPT. So that's kind of weird when I think back, like, YPT was the kind of place if you were interested in theatre and living in Toronto as a kid, you went to YPT. So I don't know why they didn't do that. Probably because they were disinterested. And they were like, this place is down the street.

[00:18:32.830] - Sasha

So it's more convenient.

[00:18:35.650] - Stephen

Of course. If they're not well versed in theatre pedagogy - and who is? - then they're not going to know the difference between YPT and this particular school. And you just said that it was closer. So why wouldn't you be going to that one? They'd think that probably they had more of a handle on it because it was close by.

[00:19:04.810] - Sasha

Yeah. And I remember you had to pay to enroll in those classes. And I remember I think I had a scholarship or something or they helped my parents out a couple of times with funding that. So that was really helpful as well. Maybe it was less expensive. All those things are part of it, too, but it's really fun. And, I mean, there was no stage. There were a bunch of ... There was in this one back room. There were some halogen lights that were, like, shifted to shine upon this little platform stage that was made of just basically just theatre blocks, just a flat kind of.

[00:19:52.870] - Sasha

And the chairs would be brought out when parents came for these little showcases. But a lot of people who were involved in theatre in my high school had somehow gone to the drama workshop because I went to North Toronto at Yonge and Eglington. I had a friend, Susan Spratt, who became an actress. And Dan Levy. I don't know if he went to the drama workshop, but he lived right around there. He went to high school with me. We did all our school plays. Dan Levy, myself, this guy named Alistair Scott.

[00:20:33.250] - Sasha

We did all the school plays at North Toronto. And so that drama workshop really fueled my interest in theatre and got me involved in it in high school.

[00:20:46.450] - Stephen

That's very interesting. And whether or not these other people who were in high school took classes there, some of them did. So it was kind of a feeder school, but not from primary school or public school, because there was no real drama for you to take. And I'm assuming that in high school, you did lots of drama in high school.

[00:21:11.170] - Sasha

We had a drama class and a great teacher, I think her name was Cate Boutilier-she was the drama teacher in the first couple of years. And she always did really interesting ... She had the students doing, like, absurdism and sort of stuff that would blow your mind right when you were whatever, 13, 14 years old. And we did, like, No Exit with her and cool stuff. And then Susan Freeman took over as the drama teacher, when Mrs. Boutilier stopped working.

[00:21:54.130] - Sasha

But Susan Freeman then led that drama program after, and we did some plays. But it was mostly the students who did the productions.

[00:22:11.950] - Stephen

Really, including No Exit.

[00:22:15.370] - Sasha

Yeah. Including No Exit.

[00:22:18.010] - Stephen

Wow.

[00:22:19.510] - Sasha

Yeah. So bad. I remember it so clearly. And we did The Bad Seed. That terrible play, The Bad Seed. Oh, yeah. And that high school was interesting because in our English classes, we also did, there was always sort of a drama interest. So Courtney Walker, who was George F. Walker's daughter. She and I were in the same class together. So we did this play, which, if I can find, I think it was pretty good. We wrote this play together called, like, 39 Floors Up, and we did it in our English class on top of the desks.

[00:23:04.030] - Sasha

Courtney and I and we would hang out at her dad's apartment on Spadina writing this play. And I, of course, had no idea who George F. Walker was, right. So I'm like, there we're writing this play. He's like, maybe think about this guys, maybe think about this. And then only 15 years later, when I'm now teaching Canadian theatre and teaching his plays, I'm like, oh, yeah. Maybe we should have listened to him, his advice.

[00:23:37.290] - Stephen

Very quickly. I'm saying this not to read into everything you told me, but you've gone from no exposure, no family exposure to the theatre. It just wasn't a part of the culture to being completely immersed.

[00:23:57.090] - Sasha

Totally absorbed, obsessed.

[00:24:00.510] - Stephen

And not entirely based on one kindergarten production of Phantom. But from that, you go into a ballet class. From ballet class, you go into a drama class from drama class, you start doing high school theatre. And, of course, in high school, it didn't follow that you had to do theatre in high school.

[00:24:20.430] - Stephen

I'm sure there are lots of people who went to North Toronto High School who didn't do theatre. But you immersed yourself. And then got to know all the people there who are interested in theatre,. So you became increasingly involved in it. What about attendance at the theatre?

[00:24:37.270] - Sasha

Yeah. So I would go see all the shows at Tarragon. I remember that that was pretty formative. I don't know what it was about that company that felt accessible. I don't know if they did some sort of thing with the schools, but I remember going to see shows alone at Tarragon throughout high school.

[00:25:00.130] - Stephen

Okay.

[00:25:00.370] - Sasha

I would go see the whole season. And my friends were like, what are you doing tonight? And I'd be like, I'm going to go see this theatre show. And I remember Fringe became really important in high school as like an accessible thing that felt like I could go to. I don't know when Soulpepper started doing all those shows at the DuMaurier. But I remember being like, oh, I'm going to go down past the Gardener Expressway and see these shows by this new company. So I remember seeing their early stuff.

[00:25:39.530] - Sasha

What did I see? I think The Dumb Waiter. I don't remember when that production was when Soulpepper did it, but it was at the DuMaurier (Harbourfront). So all those shows became really important to me.

[00:25:55.130] - Stephen

that you don't know ... Why you first ...

[00:26:00.230] - Stephen

Was going to the Tarragon really the first time you went to the theatre?

[00:26:03.830] - Sasha

No.

[00:26:05.450] - Stephen

When you were much younger, did you go to anything?

[00:26:09.470] - Sasha

Where did I go to when I was younger?

[00:26:12.590] - Stephen

And the answer may be no, of course.

[00:26:18.390] - Sasha

When I was really young. I'm sure my parents took me to some theatre, although not really. I mean, they took me to sports events. So sporting events were things we went to. That was performance for sure in my family. I mean, that was their connection to theatre was thinking of it probably as performance.

[00:26:44.210] - Stephen

Absolutely. Yeah. So what kind of sporting events did you go to see?

[00:26:47.450] - Sasha

Baseball, soccer events, any sport. And I was also while I was doing all this theatre stuff, the rule in our family was you always had to be playing a sport. Literally. This was a rule. So I was a competitive swimmer the whole way through.

[00:27:07.910] - Stephen

Right.

[00:27:08.570] - Sasha

And then I was a competitive golfer because my mom became a golf professional. So I was doing theatre kind of, like, secretly on the side. Okay. And then my parents were like, you should get a golf scholarship to go to a school in the States. You can get a full ride. Because when you're a woman golfer, it was very easy to get a full ride scholarship at a University in the States. What University was the question? But then I got into Queens and said, I'm just going to go do drama at Queens.

[00:27:44.670] - Sasha

And they were like, what? Why would you do this to yourself? And that's kind of how that happened. So, yeah, I'm trying to think though, what shows did I see? Like, I remember seeing Joseph. You know, class trips. We all went to go see Joseph. I remember the actors coming out into the audience and doing their calisthenics in the aisles.

[00:28:09.870] - Stephen

So the theatre that you went to, I'm glad you brought up the sporting events and performance because you went to performance events. You went to sports. You were involved in a kind of performance, all kinds of performance, actually, sporting events. In addition to which you did some dance. You did some theatre, you did all this other kind of training. But you didn't attend that particular kind of performance event regularly until you started attending something. Until you went to Tarragon? I'm saying that with a question mark.

[00:28:50.790] - Sasha

Pretty well.

[00:28:51.270] - Sasha

Like, I'd say the first things that I went to that I said, I want to go see this. We're probably that. And I would see stuff at Factory, maybe a bit earlier, probably in high school, like, grade nine. I was going to Tarragon. I was going to Factory. I was going to Fringe. That was stuff that I found. I would find it. I mean, my parents, wouldn't, they'd drop me off and be like, see you later. And that was that. And then when you're in high school, you can go yourself.

[00:29:24.430] - Sasha

And before that, I guess it was school trips. That was my experience of theatre. So it was going to go see Joseph with the class, going to school theatre trips. Theatre that was brought into the school. But it was really high school where I could go see the stuff I wanted to see that I thought was cool.

[00:29:47.170] - Stephen

And I'm interested in the fact that you say you often went on your own or you basically went on your own.

[00:29:57.430] - Stephen

Because.

[00:29:58.750] - Stephen

Honestly, that's come up in other discussions I've had. This idea of going on your own and you just started going. And you don't remember any particular impetus that caused you to do that a particular play you wanted to see.

[00:30:19.150] - Sasha

I remember seeing Theatre Smith Gilmore stuff, probably in grade nine or ten, like, really pretty early. And I remember, I don't know what brought me to Factory.

[00:30:33.490] - Stephen

Probably.

[00:30:33.970] - Sasha

My parents were like, oh, yeah. Check out this playbill because they'd find something. I mean, they were supportive. So if they'd come across something, they'd be like, oh, here. Or I used to also read. I remember when I was in early high school, I'd read those Eye magazines. Eye and Now. So I would bring those to the school cafeteria. And I would just read Eye and I would read Now magazine, and they would say, oh, there'd be a review of some show. And so I figured out a way to go see it.

[00:31:05.110] - Sasha

Right. Those were really important. I remember that. So maybe that's how I figured out what to go to.

[00:31:10.330] - Stephen

Yeah, that's very interesting.

[00:31:12.190] - Sasha

But I saw Theatre Smith Gilmore's Chekhov Shorts. I remember that show. That show was really important to me. I never knew theatre like that existed. I never knew a whole bunch of people could be in a room together. And I remember Dean Gilmour and Michelle Smith turning a table. They had this tablecloth that they made into a table. And then with the physical theatre, Lecoq thing, it would be a flower. And then it would be this. And then it would be that all that, like, Capital R, romantic, transformational, Lecoq theatre.

[00:31:50.110] - Sasha

And I was like, I couldn't believe it. That stuff floored me.

[00:31:55.990] - Stephen

That's great.

[00:31:56.890] - Sasha

Now it's so silly.

[00:31:59.770] - Stephen

Why do you say that?

[00:32:01.690] - Sasha

Oh, well, it speaks to a certain time and place.

[00:32:05.950] - Stephen

Yes, it certainly does. But it's a very powerful form of theatre, as you've just illustrated. The fact that you didn't know it. You didn't know about it.

[00:32:18.910] - Sasha

I didn't know how to be a spectator. I didn't know anything about it. But that company was really interesting.

[00:32:28.090] - Stephen

And did you see this company? And did they come into the school?

[00:32:32.050] - Sasha

No. They were in the back space. I remember it. It was in the Factory Theatre Backspace.

[00:32:44.270] - Stephen

That's very interesting.

[00:32:45.350] - Sasha

Maybe, like, I don't know why I saw that. Maybe in high school. My teachers probably told me what to go see, but it wasn't a school trip. I think we did a school trip when I was in grade eight. We all went to Stratford, but I don't remember what we saw going to Stratford. All I remember about school trips to Stratford and Shaw were like buying candy on the street. To be honest, that's actually what I remember about those trips. I don't remember the shows very well.

[00:33:17.490] - Sasha

Well, I remember the experience of being a tourist in a small town and going to the bookstore.

[00:33:25.110] - Stephen

Do you remember anything about the theatre at Stratford or Shaw? I say that because it's a fairly universal Ontario, Southern Ontario experience.

[00:33:36.390] - Sasha

Yes.

[00:33:36.690] - Stephen

The festival theatre, climbing on the bus and going and being [inaudible] .

[00:33:42.510] - Sasha

The horns.

[00:33:42.930] - Stephen

The horns.

[00:33:43.410] - Sasha

The horns. That was a big deal. What? That means the show is starting. Yeah. Well, actually, interestingly at that school. So when I was in grade eight, all these weird connections, right. Six degrees of separation. There was a friend of mine. Her name was Alison, and she was very involved. She was a child actor. Alison Pill. She's an LA actor now.

[00:34:20.690] - Stephen

Yes I know.

[00:34:22.430] - Sasha

So we were in the same class together in grade seven and eight. She was in the school play. She played Sandy. We did Grease. And so she and I were, like, interested in taking everyone to theatre stuff. And our moms took, organized this trip to Stratford on a school bus. I think my mom was just like, I should probably do something to be supportive of my child. Yeah, but so we were friends. We haven't been in touch since then since she went on to just focus on acting work.

[00:35:00.230] - Stephen

But I'm intrigued by this school trip because it was grade eight.

[00:35:05.750] - Sasha

Yeah. It was grade eight that's early. Yeah.

[00:35:08.930] - Stephen

People in grade eight in my experience, didn't go on a school trip to Stratford.

[00:35:14.090] - Sasha

Yeah. That was middle school. That was Deer Park. That's why I remember that. Because it was like, just grade seven and eight. Like, you went grade one to six in Ontario, and then you're in Toronto. Then you had seven and eight, this middle school and then nine. So. Yeah, that was weird. We did go to Stratford and grade eight because my teacher was this. She was really supportive of the idea.

[00:35:35.210] - Stephen

I remember that my home very interesting because it's young.

[00:35:39.650] - Sasha

Yeah. I forget what we saw. I could find out, like, maybe it was West Side Story. For some reason, I'm thinking it was West Side Story because I was obsessed with West Side Story. So maybe that's where the obsession and during the pandemic, actually, my obsession for West Side Story has reignited. Well, I just been listening to that book, like, again and again and again on repeat. I don't know why, but yeah, maybe it was West Side Story that we saw. Maybe we were reading Romeo and Juliet or something.

[00:36:20.990] - Sasha

Sure.

[00:36:24.450] - Stephen

But you're fairly certain it wasn't Shakespeare you went to see.

[00:36:28.590] - Sasha

I'm fairly certain it was likely a musical.

[00:36:32.070] - Stephen

Yeah.

[00:36:37.690] - Sasha

But it was a lot of friends. It was a lot of friends who had a parent that was in some way very connected to the theatre that I always sort of turned to, I guess. In primary school, it was Anne [Rustay], who was the designer for Opera Atelier. And then in middle school, it was Alison, who was working as a professional actor who was kind of like, oh, Sasha, this is what it's all about. And then in high school, it was Courtney Walker, her dad, this playwright, who is like, Sasha, this is what it's all about.

[00:37:15.350] - Sasha

This is how you find out information about this. It was always kind of this network of people. I feel like that were really important.

[00:37:23.630] - Stephen

Yeah.

[00:37:24.410] - Sasha

To telling me what the theatre was about.

[00:37:27.710] - Stephen

And I'm struck by if this is the right word, the serendipity of it all. If you turned a corner and met somebody else, that wouldn't have happened.

[00:37:39.630] - Sasha

Yeah.

[00:37:41.550] - Stephen

Unless we want to say that you were drawn to the theatre in some .. for more visceral experience, that you wanted to be exposed to performance of all kinds. And then you found the people. I mean, you could say you could argue that - I'm not arguing that - because who knows?

[00:38:10.750] - Sasha

Who knows, I don't know.

[00:38:11.470] - Stephen

But you certainly- I will say, though, the fact that you went to the theatre, I'm guessing quite often in high school in your teenage years on your own and just did it. So it wasn't a social event. You weren't influenced by other people. In that respect, you just decided you wanted to see as much of this stuff as you possibly could.

[00:38:37.150] - Sasha

You can kind of do that right with theatre in ways that you can't do it with other extracurricular things in high school, you can just go. You could just go to the Tarragon. You get tickets for, like, $5, because they always had a student ticket rate. You could just go and you just sit there and see stuff, and then you could go home. You didn't have to do drugs or do crazy stuff. It was just, like, pretty safe. I think my parents were like, okay, this is okay.

[00:39:13.390] - Sasha

If this is what she decides to do on a Saturday night. Great. Hang out with a bunch of other 70 year old people who are watching stuff at the Tarragon. Awesome.

[00:39:26.750] - Stephen

But what I find interesting about what you just said, but that whole line of inquiry is that theatre was different, even though I think I would argue that theatre is a very social experience. You could go alone. And how many other kinds of public events were there where you could go alone? Well, sporting events, you could go alone. But did you?

[00:40:01.310] - Sasha

No, no

[00:40:02.810] - Stephen

There are musical events. I mean, these are all performance events, so it all fits. But musical events, people can go alone. Certainly dance performances. You can go alone.

[00:40:15.290] - Stephen

So that kind of performance. But there's so many other things that you just wouldn't think of going to a public place full of other people who are all strangers. And I'm now officially leading the conversation.

[00:40:31.910] - Sasha

Well, no, it's true.

[00:40:32.690] - Stephen

Because that's what I draw from that.

[00:40:35.330] - Sasha

I remember going to Fringe in the summers, and, yeah, I would go see shows alone all the time, or I'd tell a friend that I was going, and maybe we'd meet up there, but it didn't have to be something where you needed a buddy. You could just go. There was something so great about that. Because when you're a teenager, everything is about having to have other people doing things with you. It's really nice to have moments where that wasn't a requirement. You didn't need a buddy.

[00:41:14.970] - Stephen

We've now talked for almost 50 minutes.

[00:41:19.530] - Sasha

Oh, goodness.

[00:41:20.670] - Stephen

And we could keep going. We can. But perhaps that's not a bad place to end it. We've covered a lot of ground, and I really appreciate it. Unless there's something else that's come to mind that you really wanted to say about your early experiences in the theatre.

[00:41:39.990] - Sasha

I'm trying to think. No.

[00:41:46.190] - Stephen

We can always do it again. Sasha, there's nothing to stop us.

[00:41:51.290] - Sasha

I hope it's valuable for you. I don't know.

[00:41:53.630] - Stephen

It's very valuable. Thank you very much.

A Conversation with Jenn Cole

On Monday, 26 April 2021, at 9am EDT, Stephen Johnson talked with Jenn Cole about her first experiences with Performance--her 'First Gatherings.' That conversation is included below, in full. You can find out more about her life, scholarship and performance practice here

Watching the entire interview gives a sense of the full range of influences of someone who was both a spectator and a performer while growing up near Deep River, Ontario, and visiting relatives across southern Ontario. Jenn's memories include attending a concert of celebrity impersonators and wanting to impersonate them (at seven), being deeply impressed by trapeze artists visiting her highschool from Kingston, and performing dance, gymnastics and acrobatics in classes and competitions--but also with her cousins in the courtyard of her grandmother's apartment building, for an audience watching from balconies. She remembers the strange, and new experience of watching theatrical productions from backstage in her high school, and of a road trip to Stratford. Presented here for your viewing pleasure, the lesson learned that life is filled with performances witnessed and performed, in as many different venues as we can imagine--from Stratford to an apartment building's garden (what a theatre!); and performances ranging from a (not the) Madonna, through to the Shakespearean actor and the high school strangeness of Our Town. A full transcript will be posted later.

A Conversation with Jenn Cole

TRANSCRIPT

GATHERINGS:  ARCHIVAL AND ORAL HISTORIES OF PERFORMANCE 
First Gatherings Project; Interview with Jenn Cole by Stephen Johnson 

On 26th April 2021.  See website recording and introduction  

Full consent given by both parties for posting.  

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Stephen: Hello, Jenn  

Jenn: Oh, hi, Stephen.  

Stephen: Thank you so much for agreeing to do this. I believe I should start this by asking you, and recording, just who you are, on this 26th of April 2021, in this year of our pandemic, at 9:26 AM. And, if you could just say who you are, and could you tell me that you have read the consent documents, and that you agree to the consent documents.  

Jenn: Oh, yeah, I can tell you. I'll just tell you right now that, yes, I've read the consent document—  

Stephen: Good.  

Jenn: —and agree to all things as they appear there. Yeah, I'm Jenn Cole. I'm mixed ancestry Algonquin from Kiji Sibi territory, which is the Ottawa River watershed. And I grew up in the bush right next to Deep River, Ontario, which is Ontario's first planned community, built by the federal government to support the building of the nuclear power plant in the 40s. I am a performer and untrained dancer. I also really like dramaturgy and outside eye work. I am learning to work collaboratively in circle with other human beings, which is something I didn't like for quite a while. I mostly did solo work that I choreographed in my living room and then would only show it when it was, like, showtime. I'm a really undisciplined performer, and I only have a dance practice if I'm working on a thing. And I also identify as an Indigenous feminist performance scholar, and I teach at Trenton, in Gender and Social Justice Studies, and work with Marrie Mumford as Associate Artistic Producer at Nozhem: First Peoples' Performance Space.  

Stephen: Thank you so much for that. That about covers it. The preliminary questions that I had sent you, had to do with describing yourself, your training and education, and you as an audience member. And I think you've covered that briefly. And, of course, more will come out as we proceed. I specifically wanted to talk, in this talk, in this interview, with— a first influential experience. And actually tease that out, and spend some time on that. And, since you received the questions in advance, I'm sure you've been thinking about it, and I wonder if you could just, in general, give me a precis, a description of what that first experience with performance was: the one that you think of when you think of that significant performance.  

Jenn: Yeah, I appreciate these questions so much, Stephen. It's been so lovely—  

Stephen: Yes. I should add—  

Jenn: —to think of how performance came into my life—  

Stephen: Yes.  

Jenn: —in the last few days, and kind of holding those relationships, and—  

Stephen: Good.  

Jenn: It's almost like doing a micro-history.  

Stephen: Absolutely.  

Jenn: Yeah, I like it. And I think this will serve your questions about performance and our co-project of expanding notions of performance, because growing up in the bush doesn't allow one very much access to live theatre. And so, when I was tracing early performance history— I'll just, like, tick on a couple of these, and then share how I came into performance. But it's mostly as a performer, rather than as an audience member. And so, I was practicing performance for longer than I was really seeing a lot of performance or being exposed to it. So, early performance memories... When I was seven, I went with my cousin, my mom, and my, like, older cousin, second cousin, to an impersonation musical concert. And so, there was an Elvis impersonator. And all of the audience members were performing, like, fan hysteria, and so, everyone was at the stage like 'aaaaa!' And I remember asking my mom, "Mom, can I go up to the front of the stage and do that?" And I just went into that, like, into that frenzy, and experienced it. And then, the next performer was a Madonna impersonator, and she was wearing the cone bra and had this long blonde ponytail and was, like, flipping that around. And there was a lot of striptease elements to what was happening. And so, my mom, like, ushered us in and was like "We gotta get out of here. This isn't for kids." And afterwards, I did a lot of Madonna dance routines. I'm just gonna show you: for, like, the first part, it's to Madonna's "Like a Prayer." It was, like, two arms descending, [demonstrates] and then, like, a turn around, and then we would blow bubbles and do cartwheels. And I don't know if that's the thing that started this thing, but my nan lived in this apartment building in Belleville, and my cousins and I used to get together, and we would do dance routines for the tenants in the building, who were mostly elderly. So we would work on a dance, which usually had some acrobatics, and then we would go into the lobby, and just buzz into every apartment building, and say, "We're doing a dance performance at two, on the west side of the building." And then, all these old ladies would come onto their balconies and watch us. And we would, like, hit 'play,' and do these performances, and then they'd throw candy down to us. And that felt so great. It was, like, for them, you know? It was a present for them. And that is still how I think of performance. Totally, completely. And I'm still fully willing to be paid in Mentos. Do it for the love. And then, yeah, after that I was— So, still, like, no other real live performance. I also grew up, sometimes, in open AA meetings. And— which is part of my family story. And I think of those as, like, really powerful storytelling performance spaces. Because the formula of that story is: This was the chaos of my life before. This was the turning moment. This is the work that it took to be sober. And then, this is my life now. And those stories are so powerful. And they were always just told by local people that I knew. There was always, like, coffee and whitener. And my brother and I would just drink that— at, like, 8 PM. And often there was a birthday cake. So, birthday celebrations of sobriety are really important. And so, there was this air of celebration. But I also got to hear these really genuine stories. And the purpose of those stories is to, like, save people's lives. It's so beautiful, I think, that I got to experience that kind of storytelling, which was also really, like, for the audience— and for the person doing the telling. Then I was a gymnast. And our gymnastics club, our rural gymnastics club, had a recreational-competitive program. So, that's, like, pre-provincial. So, from Kingston to North Bay was kind of our area for competition. We had really weird floor routines. We weren't really like gymnasts gymnasts. We didn't really know that. But our dance routines were about, like, dancing. And I remember my coach's daughter choreographed a routine for me. I can't remember if it was to the Dragon Bruce Lee soundtrack or if it was to the "Rocketeer" soundtrack, but she was like, "Do you wanna end in victory or defeat?" And these were the possibilities! Like, I could be, like, spread across the floor, or I could be like, "ah!" And we did all these weird routines, and then I became a coach. And so, then, I was choreographing routines. And I was just following my intuition and how my body wanted to respond to music. Still, there was no competitive dance scene locally, I don't think... I'd never seen dance, ever. I also had a dress that was called my rain-playing dress. And it was, like, this grandmother print, maternity affair— like, smock. Anyway, when it would rain I would put it on, and then I would run outside, and then I would dance in the rain. Like, just [demonstrates] dance! And my parents got really used to it, but I think it's just, like, been part of me in a really dorky and intuitive way, not a cool way. And then, I want to say the first performance that I saw, that I felt met me, was a trapeze dance. The Royal Military College had a circus program maybe, and they sent two people to do this demonstration. And the song was Savage Garden's Truly, Madly, Deeply, which was perfect for my 14-year-old palate. It was, like, that and then Nine Inch Nails. And then, I think the dance was, like, you know, lovers, and then isolation and distance, and conflict. And then, they came together in the end, or something. Like, that story. Also perfect for my 14-year-old palate. But I was so moved. I was actually moved to tears, and I was hugely excitable afterwards. And I remember it not really landing with my friends. I was like, "That was amazing! Like, they told the whole story just with their bodies! They didn't even use their mouths. I understood everything that was happening. I had all the feelings!" And they were just kind of, like, Let's go to math class, or whatever. But I experienced that in a really cool way. And then, I don't know if I saw a snippet of Cirque du Soleil on CBC. We only had two channels in our house, because cable didn't reach as far as our place.  

Stephen: Yeah.  

Jenn: But I started going to the Public Library, and they had three Cirque du Soleil performances on VHS tape. And I would watch those. And knew about those. And I think— I think it was that RMC performance that could be the performance. Because— and I hope you— This is, like, a weird thing about interviews, where the interviewee just goes on at length, and then becomes self- conscious that she's talking too much. Even though I think that is the purpose of the thing.  

Stephen: It is the purpose. Don't be self-conscious, you're— You know, the less I talk the better.  

Jenn: Okay, I have a little bit more and then maybe—  

Stephen: Absolutely  

Jenn: —ask me whatever you want to.  

Stephen: I do. I will and I do. But you keep going.  

Jenn: Okay, awesome. In my high school, the arty, poetry-writing, fringe-dressing weirdos did not act. In my high school, the actors were the well-adjusted jocks. And the arty ones were the living-in-the-darkness stage crew, which even had this gesture [shows gesture]. Like,'darkness!' And we built the sets. We moved the sets. We mocked the actors. There was a kind of rivalry, and it was very rare for an arty person to transcend. Like, to go to the other side. And as part of my work in backstage, which I really enjoyed— like, I loved the magic of that, and the buzz and the high stakes and the multi high school generational hangout that didn't happen in a lot of other spaces... I liked that. I liked watching theatre from backstage. And then, as part of that work, I became the junior rep for our theatre arts company club. And that meant that I was asked to be on the casting jury for our next play. And then, this teacher came to our high school, who was way too weird and cool to be a teacher in our high school. And that person was Graham Wolfe. And he was directing his first play in our high school, which was Thornton Wilder's "Our Town." And, during casting, he said, "Why don't you just read, just so that I can see, or whatever. And then, I was like, ""Okay.""" And then I read, and then he was like, "Yeah, I think you're going to be the stage manager," and then I was just suddenly acting. And -- that big memorization feat. And then, I was in his drama classes, and we were learning about acting technique, and practicing all this stuff... But I'd still never really seen live performance, like, live theatre.  

Stephen: Yeah.  

Jenn: So, after "Our Town," somehow it came out. And Graham, who was Mr. Wolfe at that time, was like, "You've never seen a live performance? We're going to take you! And so, he and" my friend Jacqueline Gilks' mom, and Jacqueline Gilks drove— Jacqueline's mom drove us all to Ottawa to see an Ottawa U performance of Mackers. And I couldn't afford to go, so they just use money from the Theatre Arts Fund to pay for my ticket or whatever. And then, that was a really stupid performance. There was something cool that happened with the witches. Like, I think that had some, something, but all I really remember is this man just yelling the whole time. He was like, 'arrrgh ghrrh!' the whole time. And it was very one note. And I couldn't feel anything happening, and I'd been doing, like, Sonia Moore Stanislavski exercises and all that stuff, and so, I was like, "No! You're supposed to be in the moment and have a motivation. And I'm supposed to feel like you're a human being with stuff going on. Where is the subtext?" And then, I know in Shakespeare there's not really, like, subtext. It's just, like, the text. But still. It was very silly. And it took a while. It took a while before I saw performance that really brought me in. And when I came to university, I started to be able to access student-price tickets at Market Hall Performing Arts Centre. And Public Energy was really brilliant at bringing in all kinds of great performance from around the province. And they did everything. Bill Kimball was running it, and he has a really open and diverse palate. So, we were seeing physical theatre. We were seeing dance. We saw Koba. Chekhov's shorts was so amazing, and I don't remember what company did that. There was Indigenous performance. We got to see Santee Smith's Skywoman performance. There was, like, all this stuff going on. And then, also locally, a dance festival that's the most socialist thing that happens in this town, I think. And Public Energy just lets anyone apply to do a 5 to 12 minute dance performance, and supplies the tech and also some dance mentorship and training, and does all of the publicity and everything, schedules everybody, and then pays the artist out of the box office. So, I guess it's, like, somewhat of a Fringe model, but just everyone who applies gets to do it. And so, I saw a lot of distinct performances from many weirdos and amazing people, and some was so successful and some was super weird, and anything could happen. It could be, like, someone with a trumpet who couldn't really play the trumpet, on a ladder with some digital projections. It could be dance that was really, you know, from particular schools. You know, trained bodies doing stuff. That's never as interesting to me. But I think you're hearing the back story of the training, which is, like: by doing performance, and then, once in a while, getting a choreographic workshop or something, that I just found how to do a thing in the way that I like to do it, and then I'd get to like a bunch of other things.  

Stephen: This is fantastic, Jenn. I appreciate you. And, of course, it doesn't surprise me. You've managed to, you know, address most of the things that I might have quizzed you on if you weren't going into detail, but you did go into detail. Here is the first thing that I take from what you say: how broad and varied your performance experience was, despite— You know, you're saying you had two channels on television and no access to things that were called theatre, or theatrical productions, until you were, you know— As you say, it was your high school teacher, a mutual friend of ours, who had to take you to the theatre. I don't think that's an unusual experience for people growing up in Ontario -- or for people growing up, period. How many people have access to things that are called theatre?  

Jenn: Right.  

Stephen: And I think you get to university, and— or to a larger urban place— and these things open up to you. But I wanted to ask— You know, I want to go back to the trapeze.  

Jenn: OK.  

Stephen: Which may or may not have had something to do with the Royal Military College, I guess.  

Jenn: Yeah, it did. For sure.  

Stephen: Your— It spoke to you, and it did not speak to your friends. And that is interesting to me because there's a background that you had, then, that they did not have. I mean, there are many other things besides just a particular background, but there's something going on there... Who else was in attendance at this? Was it a school performance?  

Jenn: I think the whole school.  

Stephen: The whole school.  

Jenn: I think we all fit in the gym.  

Stephen: OK.  

Jenn: Maybe we fit in the gym in two sessions, or something like that, but I'm pretty sure it was my whole high school.  

Stephen: And why do you think that it would speak to you and make you— and grab you. And make you respond in the way you did, but not your friends? Was it the dance and gymnastics background? Did they not have that? Was it something else? You know, was it the, you know, impersonation concert you went to when you were seven years old? No, probably not that. But, you know, like, what— Was there something in particular that made you into the person who would respond to that in the way that you responded to it? Which is viscerally, and the fact that it was so deeply meaningful to you, in a way that apparently it wasn't to the people that were around you.  

Jenn: Yeah, I love this question. I— OK— When I picture how that looked, there's theatrical lighting: I'm not sure that there was. The sound system is amazing: and I don't know that it was.  

Stephen: Yes.  

Jenn: I was so in that dual place of the imagination and the material body. And I was watching body knowledge, right? Like, I was watching really smart, intelligent bodies speaking without using verbal language, and I understood what they were doing. And they were also showing me something that I hadn't had the opportunity to see a lot of people do.  

Stephen: Yes.  

Jenn: But when I was in my gymnastics routine, I wasn't just like, "Ping! Let's get a 9.9 score by moving my body perfectly," but was, like, feeling the music.  

Stephen: Yes.  

Jenn: And feeling the story. Like, the role was about something.  

Stephen: Can I just interrupt there to ask what— and— Were you legitimately encouraged in this attitude towards gymnastics, rather than the way it might have been?  

Jenn: Yup.  

Stephen: Which was to try to get you to suppress that, in favor of the competitive aspects of gymnastics?  

Jenn: Yeah. I think we had really well-rounded training. And the coaches were primarily parents of competitive athletes, and so were interested in holistic care for the whole person. So... Yeah, and we just didn't— It was— We didn't have anyone to represent to us a more— a less— a less wacky way.  

Stephen: Yes.  

Jenn: And, yeah, anyone who was choreographing our routines just really went for this creative thing. We just valued the creative possibilities of dance. I remember this one gymnast, Heidi, had in her routine, because of how the music was going— and maybe this was appropriative, now that I think of it. But she was doing a headstand, and then her body became the basket, and then her legs, like, swivelled out like a snake from a basket. And we got this sense of place. Yeah, we just did stuff like that. The whole club. Everyone was on board for that. And then, we did hear whisperings, when we would go to meets, that our routines were way weirder than anyone else's, where they were just trying to hit the skills and get the points or whatever. But yeah, I would say it was actively encouraged. And it was the only thing that we really knew.  

Stephen: Yeah. And was there a context around that, that you were aware of, that would not have encouraged that, given a different, a slightly different scenario? I mean, was there— there was a layer of encouragement around you, and then around that was a layer that might not have been so encouraging? And I ask that in part because of what you say about the acting club, and that clear distinction, which I find— I have to say, I find fascinating— between the onstage people and the backstage people. That's a very, very interesting distinction, and it resonates with me, in my life. Very interesting.  

Jenn: Interesting.  

Stephen: And, like, it's as if there's— Well, of course, you know, in high schools there are always groups of people that, you know— there are clear groups of people, and they get along with each other, or they associate with each other, or they don't. And that's common, but there's a cultural distinction there and an aesthetic distinction. A real aesthetic distinction between the crowd that took art, and the crowd that took drama, and the crowd that took music. Why there should be that distinction, I wouldn't care to say. And I— It sounds like there was that kind of distinction, and that you had a context within which you could play the way you did and perform the way you did. But the folks over in this area didn't have the same context or encouragement. I'm reading into that, but it's a question.  

Jenn: Yeah, I wonder. And I don't really know the people who directed shows before Mr Wolfe directed shows. We also had an art teacher replace an older art teacher. And she was from OCAD. She was really excited about experimentation. She actually taught us how to make art. So, we had crits, and there were beautiful classes on technique, and all this stuff. And that was a really big switch from what had previously been done. And she became a set designer also. And so, there was this way that the arties were becoming integrated. She did a back— I think it was for "Annie." I'm quite certain it was for "Annie." She made this beautiful impressionist cityscape backdrop, that in our school had never been attempted. You know, anything abstract—  

Stephen: Yes.  

Jenn: —not directly representational, hadn't really been tried, I don't think. So, it was a good time to arrive into the mix, I think. And I would say the context changed after that, or the divisions changed after that. Arty kids started performing more. I think— I don't know that this is useful for the interview, but I think our grade was the grade— or, our cohort was the cohort that broke down the jock-freak— What was the other one? I feel like there were jocks, freaks... Oh, and bushies! Bush lads— who are, like, people living with lower income, who live in the bush, and who know how to hunt and trap and fish, and who also ride skidoos. So, like, that was the triad. But bushies were never often part of doing theatre.  

Stephen: And what relationship did you have with each of those, yourself?  

Jenn: Oh, that's in the teen memoirs, Stephen.  

Stephen: And I look forward to reading that.  

Jenn: I didn't— I think I came in pretty strongly as a freak, and then— But also lived in the bush—  

Stephen: Yes.  

Jenn: —out of town. But wasn't part of the community that—  

Stephen: Right.  

Jenn: —were just in other towns over. And I didn't really fit with well-adjusted athletes, who did team sports. I wasn't really into that. I didn't really fit anywhere. I kind of was outside but touching into, yeah, into different groups.  

Stephen: Alright.  

Jenn: —forming myself, as authentically as possible.  

Stephen: I'm at a place where I'm not sure what to ask, because it's all very— I mean, this is exactly— To be clear— and I don't mind saying it for a transcript, and you know, in a recording— this is exactly the kind of thing I wanted to hear about, because to me, it— You're talking about the breadth of exposure that you did have to performance of many kinds. And, on the one hand, there is a breadth of exposure. On the other hand, there are very clear, distinct places, where you went, and you didn't go, you weren't supposed to go, you had to go, even when you mentioned grades. You know, you say— You started off by saying maybe that wasn't really pertinent to the conversation. Sure, it is. Because, you know, when you were doing gymnastics, you might have been encouraged to think entirely about the competitive side of it and whether— and how you would be graded on it. But you weren't. And it's just so in all of the different kinds of creative work that you did and you were encouraged to do. This is a very interesting distinction, and it all depends on the people that are right there on, you know, on top of things.  

Jenn: Yeah, the people who are right there... [inaudible, overlap]   

Stephen: I mean, more than anything else, in everything you've said, it depends on that person who walks into the room and leads the discussion, or leads the performance, or gives you the right word to go in a particular direction.  

Jenn: Mhm, yeah.  

Stephen: And, of course, going back to the beginning of this conversation, the accidental trip to, you know, the impersonation concert, which clearly you remember vividly.  

Jenn: It left an impression. And, you know, I was thinking about why it was able to. And I think the prohibition was a huge sense of how the memory embedded itself. So, we weren't shamed, but I didn't know that some performance was for kids and some performance wasn't for kids. And I didn't know that a really embodied sexuality and, like, a cone bra that I had never seen before, which was hugely interesting to me— I was with that performer! I didn't know that that wasn't allowed, or it embodied something that was for later. I wasn't making that connection. And I knew she was performing sexuality, insofar as I understood that when I was seven or whatever. But I thought it was pretty great, and I was surprised to learn that we were not able to continue. And it's possible our moms had a read on what was coming next. Maybe that was what we weren't permitted to see. Like, a lady in her underpants or whatever. Yeah. But I think that had a lot of palpable energy around it. It was like, so much newness. Oh, there's a way to perform fandom. I know Elvis is some famous guy that old people like. But now here he kind of is. Yeah, it was a lot of newness. So, that must be part of why it went in forever. Plus there was more to come. And so, I'm still in this suspended state: who was the next performer? Was it Johnny Cash?  

Stephen: And you'll never know! Well, there's a theatre history project. You'll have to go back and find the program for that. That's very, very interesting. I really appreciate your talking about all of this. I mean, I can ask other questions that I wrote down and that I delivered to you about significant moments and the insignificant moments. It was something that seemed— about these particular events that you've described to me— and what is— if there's something that you think is missing, that you ought to remember, but you can't. Or that you remember vividly but has nothing to do with anything. A piece of costume, or what audience members wore, or, you know, the door to the entrance of the place. These things that just— you know, how there are these things stick in your mind, and you have no idea why. And sometimes there's a reason, and sometimes there is no reason.  

Jenn: Yeah.  

Stephen: And I wonder if there's any of that, that— Might a statement of that resonate with you in any way for any of these things.  

Jenn: Yeah. I appreciate the kind of broadness of the question. I think that's something I came to learn about how I connected to performance. So, not about what constitutes good or not good performance. It won't surprise you to hear that I prefer off-cannon, in-progress work. I'm really interested in that. And it has been the case, I think, since I was small, that it's never really landed for me. So, I'm just remembering two performances that I saw in theatres. One in eighth grade: on a trip to Ottawa, we went to see a French play at the NAC. I just remember, like, lit bodies moving around the stage, and one really fancy dress. But it just looked like people talking at each other on stage. I was not interested. And I went to see "As you like it" in Stratford, I think in later highschool. I had completely forgotten that. But I was also bored. Period. I was bored! I remembered the dinner afterwards. I remember the company of the people I was with. I remember swans, that was so nice. But I— like [makes a sound], the performance— I couldn't connect! And I think it would be really fun to analyze that, knowing what I know now and having more experience with performance. I think I prefer when the body is really part. And when there's a level of abstraction, where it's the thing beside the thing, instead of the thing itself. I got that language from Meagan O'Shea in a choreographic workshop, where she was like: "Just go for the thing beside the thing!" You know? "What is that thing? Then dance that thing." And I'm so interested in all of the relationships that, like, blow out of doing that, rather than— I mean, probably also there are other interpretations of the scripts that I would enjoy.  

Stephen: Yes.  

Jenn: I think there has— for me, with performance, if there's play, if there's a lot of risk that's visible— For instance, Denise Fujiwara doing that Butoh performance that was for her mentor, where she came out twirling those long sticks. And she was just Butoh-ing the entire time, and the risk of that is, like, you're not going to be in ultimate presence for just a slippage of a millisecond. But she was completely present the entire time. I've never experienced that before or probably afterwards in such a sensate way, or sensory way. Yeah, I like that. I like when it's exciting, and people aren't just demonstrating— Well, she was demonstrating virtuosity, for sure— But aren't just doing their craft in a really great way.  

Stephen: When you go— I understand everything you're saying, I think. And, of course, we're all attracted to different kinds of theatre. And, as you rightly say, it all depends on the interpretation of the the play text. I mean, you're not going to see a play text. You're going to see a performance. And that could be very visual. It could be dance-oriented. It could be many things.  

Jenn: Yes.  

Stephen: When you went to this particular performance that you refer to as that you just don't remember the performance itself. You remember going. You remember the swans. You remember this... I've had these experiences myself. And I think: well, what was it about the performance, and what was it about everybody else in the performance? Were you there with a school group? Or were you there on your own? Or were you there with your family? Or, like, who else is in the audience, and how were they responding?  

Jenn: Yeah. Yeah! So, I think this. I was with my friend Jacqueline Gilks again, and her mom, and our friend, who was another teacher in the high school, Judy Dickens. And— It was nice! Maybe Jacqueline's sister was there too. It was a field trip for family. We were going to stay in a hotel. It had a lot of positive, exciting—  

Stephen: Yes.  

Jenn: —getting-out-of-the-small-town things about it. What I felt in the audience— We're really hitting on something! It's, like, getting psychoanalytic, Stephen. What I felt in the audience was veneration. And I resent that.  

Stephen: Right.  

Jenn: I haven't read the Harry Potter series because there's too much hype— and now the transphobia. But, even before that, I was like: people like it too much, so I don't like it.  

Stephen: OK, well that's gonna [inaudible overlap] that's gonna set you up. That's certainly going to set you up to have a problem—  

Jenn: Oh, yeah. For sure.  

Stephen: —with going into that particular space in that particular town. With no, you know, no reflection on the intentions there, you enter it, with a particular mindset. Saying: well, why am I here?  

Jenn: I think I thought— I think I was learning something there. So, I think I thought: "We're going to Stratford, which is, like, the place where theatre happens. And I like theatre—" or, I'm learning that I like theatre. And then we went. And then there was all this anticipation, but also this set understanding that what was happening was wonderful. And then, I just couldn't really connect to it, but I did still feel that audience vibration of, like: 'it's Stratford!' But I was like: Oh, I don't know...  

Stephen: Yes.  

Jenn: So, I think maybe it's, like, a retroactive resentment. Though I'm sure I have always, consistently, my whole life, not really, naturally trusted or respected authority. I— yeah... I think I was developing that understanding in the moment.  

Stephen: But that's— Your introduction to performance, and your experience of performance, was exactly that. It was non-traditional, whatever traditional is. But it wasn't going to Stratford from the beginning of your life, and treating that with a particular respect, because that was how I was going to get my my theatrical education.  

Jenn: Right.  

Stephen: There was something else going on for many years before you entered that theatre, went into that space.  

Jenn: Yes.  

Stephen: So, you respond to it in a particular way, and then come back to it later and read into it. I mean, that's me reading into it at all. And, as we all do, reading my own experience with Stratford into that. Because I was taken from a very early age— And it's not my interview, so I won't go into that.  

Jenn: Oh! But maybe later!  

Stephen: But, you know, I mean it was. You know, you're taken there when you're very, very young, and this is a big deal. But then, years later, I think we all ask: well, now, why was it a big deal? You know? I otherwise didn't go to the theatre. And my parents didn't go to the theatre. But we went to Stratford.  

Jenn: OK! Yeah.  

Stephen: And why did we go to Stratford? Because it wasn't really theatre. It was a part of a very important cultural education, and if we were going to be members of a community, well, you needed to go. So, my parents dutifully went. I don't think they were attuned to it anymore than their children were, which is very interesting. We were all learning. We were all being acultured in— at the same time. And I remember that part of it. But I too don't remember much of the performances, except— And I'm only saying these things about my own experience because they resonate with yours. I remember visual things so vividly! Parts of costumes, set pieces, things floating down from the rafters! [inaudible, overlap] These wonderful things!  

Jenn: Yeah.  

Stephen: Do I remember the play? The plot? Not early on. But then, how would I? I mean, wasn't it a foreign language to you?  

Jenn: Yes, yes. Oh, yes. Hugely.  

Stephen: I mean, you know, it's only later that we start to realize what— I mean, even with the narrative was. I always— I have to say, I've always thought about Stratford: thank goodness for the plot synopsis in the program! When I was young, oh my goodness, I had no idea what was going on most of the time. But I loved watching the costumes, and I loved watching the, you know, like, the other things that were happening.  

Jenn: Yeah, the lighting. I think I remember lighting. And the actress was on a rope swing. Sometimes? But also, that was the cover image from the brochure, so that might be what I remember!  

Stephen: So, that might be it. Yes. Yes. But that's very interesting. And I don't want to— I mean, I don't want to belabour that. In fact, your visit to Stratford was quite late, and was not— It wasn't really formative.  

Jenn: No! And I had forgotten it until this moment. And so—  

Stephen: Interesting.  

Jenn: It was your prompting: like, what is not memorable. I was like: oh, yeah, there was that whole thing. But it was set up to be hyper memorable.  

Stephen: Yes. That's interesting.  

Jenn: And it was a huge gift. I know these two moms thought: this is a theatre kid. We're gonna take her! We're going to take her, and it's gonna be amazing! And then, I was like: this dinner is amazing!  

Stephen: Well, that's another kind of performance. You know, having a dinner—  

Jenn: Yeah, the dinner.  

Stephen: —in a place you're not used to going to is—  

Jenn: Oh, yeah.  

Stephen: —a real treat.  

Jenn: Well, maybe this sets you up a little bit. Like, living in the bush, as, like, a creative person, and a fairly solitairy person, I was always hungry for other experiences. And my mom lived in North Bay for quite a while, and so I would take the Greyhound bus to see her. And the visits were, like, fine and good and various, but the Greyhound rides out of town with strangers to talk to about their worlds: that was really great. So, maybe, you know, getting out of town was the best part of going to Stratford. But maybe that was going to happen anyway.  

Stephen: Yes, I think that's— I think that gets to the heart of what I'm interested in talking about: is everything that surrounds that performance event. It sets you up to experience the performance event in a particular way.  

Jenn: Yeah.  

Stephen: And I realize that I'm including a visit to a restaurant or to your mother, you know—  

Jenn: Yeah.  

Stephen: —in that performance event. But it's a part of going to Stratford. It's a part of going to the very first performance you went to. There's a space you go to with a particular set of expectations, and then to have those expectations disrupted, but also reinforced: all of those things.  

Jenn: I'm just imagining the trapeze performance, which was probably slightly bad. I'm imagining that at Stratford: my mind would have been blown. I would have gone to theatre school. With all the set up...  

Stephen: Yeah.  

Jenn: And then, like, this is what it is?  

Stephen: Yeah.  

Jenn: I'd be like: I want that. I want that thing: that's what I would have thought. And I did think about doing a dance program out of high school. And my art teacher, who knew about Toronto, encouraged me to do so. But I had no training, and so—  

Stephen: Yeah.  

Jenn: —I felt that I would fail the audition. And she said: sometimes they're actually looking for the spirit that you bring, or whatever. And I probably wouldn't have done very well in the dance program, the technical parts. Yeah, again, see? I just need to be with artist slackers, who are also really dedicated to their craft. The amateurs, that's where I like hanging out.  

Stephen: Yes. I mean, to the degree that we can really define— I mean, as soon we say 'amateur' and 'professional', we're setting ourselves up for a mindset, and, you know, a cultural, a set of cultural definitions that you don't ascribe to. That's why you— You know?  

Jenn: Mostly. I guess I would say  'professional' is, like, certain training trajectories, lots of funding, lots of public funding structures in place for long periods of time that support the work to happen: less grant by grant.  

Stephen: Yes.  

Jenn: You know, funding structures, stuff like that. That's what I think of.  

Stephen: But that's only one definition, and same with amateur.  

Jenn: Sure.  

Stephen: Amateur is a person who loves what they do, strictly speaking.  

Jenn: Right.  

Stephen: Anyway, we've talked for an hour now.  

Jenn: That's too long for an interview.  

Stephen: And I think that perhaps it's time to end this part of the conversation.  

Jenn: Yes.  

Stephen: So, I'm going to thank you very much for this: I'm sure the first of many such conversations.